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S E R E N I T Y:
It seemed like hours passed before Big Pat finally came rushing towards Mama J and I in the waiting room, telling us we could go see Leah. The whole time we waited, Mama J and I talked about everything. She could tell how nervous I was. I think I had to be more nervous than Chris was. I know I talked a good game but I don’t know the first thing about being a mother. I just know that Chris needs me, he can’t do this by himself and once I agreed to take him back, I agreed to accept Leah too..they’re a packaged deal. However, Mama J talked some sense into me. She helped me see that I was made for this. I’ve always wanted a family, I didn’t think I’d have it this soon but I do and I’m grateful.
The first time I laid eyes on her, I knew I loved her. It was like an instant connection when Chris placed her in my arms. I honestly didn’t understand how Tiffany was able to turn her back on her daughter after seeing her. The emotions I felt rushing to me should have been felt by no one other than her birth mother, but there I stood…speechless as I held her. I made a promise to Leah that day, even though her birth mother couldn’t see that she’s a gift from God, I could. I promised to love her more than I’ve ever loved myself. By me being adopted, I know how crucial it is to make that connection early. My birth mother never made a connection with me even though she had me for four years. I can honestly say, I don’t remember much about her and it’s because she didn’t create that bond with me before she handed me over to another family. Therefore, I feel sorry for Tiffany if she ever does decide to come back in her life, it won’t be an easy process.
"You’re a natural," Chris said as he came into Leah’s room and stood beside me. The first night home, Mama J stayed over and helped me with everything but by the second day…I had everything quickly under control and in order. I guess I am a natural at this.
"So are you," I told him as I turned to face him. I was rocking Leah to sleep and from the looks of it, I was successful. I then kissed her cheek before handing her over to Chris. I walked out of her room and into the living room, sitting down on the couch. Chris soon followed me, sitting down and placing a fast asleep Leah on his chest. Watching Chris interact with his daughter the past three days has completely changed the way I looked at him. I’ve never seen him so gentle and so caring. I didn’t think it was possible to fall more in love with him in just three days, but I did.
"Come here," he said as he tugged at my elbow so I could lay beside him on the couch. I rested my head on the side of his torso that Leah wasn’t on. It was silent for a while as I just watched his chest move up and down as he drew circles with his finger on my back. "You think you slick, huh?" he asked softly, careful not to wake Leah.
"What are you talking about Brown?" I replied as I took Leah’s blanket from behind Chris and wrapped her in it, I was beginning to get cold so I know she was.
"You thought just by not talking about your birthday, a nigga would forget. Too bad I didn’t," he said as he shot me that goofy ass smile that I grew to love so much. I just giggled to myself as I looked at him. I was kind of hoping he would forget. I’ve never been one to want a lot of attention on my birthday. It’s just another day and I’m just another year older, it’s not that big of a deal. I don’t mind going all out for others on their birthday, it’s just…I don’t want anyone to go all out for me..for one day. I just can’t get with that whole idea of people treating their birthdays like it’s basically a holiday.
"Christopher, I don’t want or need anything all extravagant. Just having you and Leah is honestly the best gift anyone could ever ask for," I told him as I reached up and pecked his cheek.
"Yeah yeah yeah, I hear you. You can’t expect me to just pretend like the day doesn’t exist though. I promise I won’t go all out like I had planned to but…" he stopped talking as his eyes trailed off from looking down at me to staring up at the wall, he had something up his sleeve.
"But….what? Just spit it out Chris," I teased as I poked his side. He jerked and startled Leah but she quickly fell back asleep.
"Reach in my pocket," he said as he looked back down at me. I rolled my eyes as I began to sit up. "Nah, not like that. Seriously, I need you to get something for me," he said as he pulled me back down. I did as he said and reached into the pocket of his sweat pants and pulled out two sets of keys. I was confused.
"Why do you have two sets of keys in your pocket?" I asked him. He just swung his legs off of the couch and carefully got up with Leah. He then disarmed the alarm to the front door before standing in front of it. "You going to get up, or what?" I got up from the couch and he opened the door for me, I walked out first and he soon followed. He then led the way to the garage. He disarmed the alarm for it and opened it, I couldn’t believe my eyes.
"Chris…" I couldn’t even think of anything else to say as my Lexus sat in the garage with a new paint job and new rims. I left my car in Louisiana when I left for Paris so the trouble he went through to get it in Virginia meant more to me than the actual car.
"I thought I’d shine your baby up for you. I know how much your first car means to you so I brought it up here," he said as he walked over to me and placed his arm around my waist, kissing my forehead.
"Thank you so much baby. I love it but, what’s the other key for?" I asked as I looked down at the second pair of keys I had in my hand. He passed Leah to me and walked over to the car that had a covering on it. He pulled the covering back and a Lamborghini with a camo paint job to match his stared back at me.
"Chris, baby…what on earth—"
"I heard you talking about how much you liked my Lambo once I got the paint job, so I went ahead and got my baby one too. So when everybody sees you, they know that’s me," he said proudly. I just shook my head as I smiled at him. I couldn’t even lie, I did like the car and I couldn’t wait to drive in it.
"Lord, what other 19 year old do you know that drives a Lamborghini?" I said as I began to open up the car and check it out. He took Leah from me and got in the passenger side. I took that as my cue to go ahead and drive it, just around the block though because we didn’t have Leah’s car seat with us to go any farther.
"I had one when I was 19," he said as I pulled out of the garage. I had to adjust to how quickly this car took off.
"Let me rephrase that for you, what normal 19 year old drives a Lamborghini?" He just laughed as he re-positioned Leah in his arms.
"When will you realize you aren’t a normal 19 year old either?" he asked. I just brushed him off as I started to make my way back to the condo. People were already gawking at the car, wondering who was inside. Chris has driven his Lambo around pretty often so they probably thought it was him in the driver’s seat. I was just thankful that the windows were tinted. Minutes later we finally pulled back into the garage and I looked over to see Leah was stirring and finally woke back up.
"I’m going to make dinner. I think it’s daddy’s turn to give his princess a bath," I told Chris as we got back inside the house. He stopped dead in his tracks as he looked at me.
"Babe, I don’t know how to give her a bath. How about I make dinner and you make her smell good because I think she just shit too," he said as he wrinkled his nose and held her in the air. I just shook my head as I took Leah into my arms. Before I walked away, I tugged on his shirt so he lowered himself down to my height. I then placed a kiss on his lips.
"Thank you for my gifts babe. I love them, not as much as I love you though," I told him.
"I’m glad you like it and I love you too baby. What you want for dinner though?"
"You volunteered, you think of something," I told him as I stuck my tongue out and made my way to Leah’s room. I took off her dirty diaper then got her ready for bath time. She’s about the only baby I know that absolutely loves to take a bath. Most babies scream to the top of their lungs when a drop of water touches them but not Leah, she’s all smiles and giggles when I bathe her.
About 15 minutes later, I finished bathing Leah and dried her off. Chris managed to have dinner ready in thirty minutes afterwards. He ended up making tacos, way too many for only two of us to eat but it was good nonetheless. While we ate, I fed Leah her bottle and rocked her until she fell asleep again. I kept questioning Chris on his plans for tomorrow but he quickly caught on and kept quiet so he didn’t spoil whatever he had planned for my birthday. After a while, I just stopped trying. Chris is going to be Chris and whatever he does, I’m pretty sure I’ll get over the intitial shock of it and end up liking it…I always do.
The next day, I woke up to an unusually silent home. By this time, I’d hear the baby monitors going off with Leah’s crying or Chris in the kitchen, doing his best to fix a bottle or breakfast for us. Instead, I rolled over to a piece of paper with a bunch of Chris’ artwork on it and a messily written note. :
To the love of my life,
I know I said I wasn’t going to do anything all extravagant but honestly ma, you deserve it. You’ve stuck by my side when anyone else would have walked away from me. You’ve held me down when I was at my worst and helped me get to a point where I was at my best. I honestly don’t know where I’d be without you. I thank you for giving me another chance and I swear I know what to do with it this time. You and Leah are honestly the best part of my day and I’ll do all I can to make sure I never lose either of you. So, with that being said…today is your day ma. Get dressed and head to the address on the back of this note where you’ll enjoy breakfast. Don’t worry, Leah is with my mom and you’ll meet up with them soon. Happy birthday though Ni-Ni, I love you baby.
I wiped away the tears that puddled under my eyes as I read the note. I think this note will mean so much more to me than anything else he has planned, simply because it’s rare for him to express his feelings like that. After a while I finally got myself together and went into the closet to pick out something to wear. To my surprise, there was an outfit with plastic covering over it and a note that read “Wear this” tapped to it. I smiled as I took off the covering and fell in love with the simple outfit he must have gotten Sevyn or his mom to pick out. I then ran to the bathroom to shower. About 30 minutes later I got out and blow dried my hair. I ended up just putting it in a braid after I thought about what I could be doing today, it couldn’t be anything that required me to be all fancy.
I then finally got dressed and picked up the note, my phone, and began to search for my keys. I finally found them in the kitchen where a note was placed beside it that read “Take the Lambo today.” I just shook my head as I walked out of the condo and into the garage. I opened up the door to the Lambo and rose petals and the scent of Chris’ cologne filled the car. I then looked at the passenger side and saw a Samsung Galaxy 4 box with another note attached to it in the seat. : “I didn’t forget how you said you were tired of your iPhone and wanted this instead either. Your other phone has already been deactivated and this one is set up and ready to go. I put the address on the note in the GPS system, just follow the directions and you’ll be at your destination shortly. Hope you’re enjoying your little scavenger hunt so far. ;)”
I pulled the phone out of the box and smiled at the picture of all three of us as my wallpaper. I then found the case he bought me and put it on so I wouldn’t drop it and break it within the first day I got it. After I got everything straight, I started the car and followed the GPS directions. I was soon in the heart of Richmond and ended up at a very small restaurant in the mist of a strip mall. I parked my car and noticed there were pink balloons attached to the arch of the door. I got out and made my way up to the entrance of Family Secrets and went in.
"Surprise! Happy Birthday Ni-Ni" I looked around to see the faces of Chris’ family and friends, and my family, from my parents right on down to Mackenzie. I was soon swarmed with hugs and kisses from everyone as they wished me happy birthday individually. I didn’t even notice I was crying for what had to be the third time today. To see everyone I love stop what they were doing to come to Virginia for me, it meant everything to me.
Mama J was the last to greet me with Leah in her arms and I remembered that this would be the first time that they all got to meet her. I ended up telling my mom the whole story behind Leah but she made up some lie to tell my dad, simply because she knew how much I didn’t want him to judge Chris or our situation. He still didn’t like the fact that I was “acting” like a mother at such a young age but, this isn’t an act…I’ve fully taken on this responsibility as if it was my own to begin with.
"Alright now, everybody eat up so we can meet Chris at Serenity’s final present for today!" Mama J said as the staff of the restaurant began to bring out our food. I sat down by Macki and Ashley while my mom and dad were intrigued over Leah. Mijo, Kid Red, Austin and a couple of Chris’ other cousins that I haven’t met came over to meet me and my family. We all ate and enjoyed conversation for a good hour until Mama J began to round everyone up to head to their own cars. Again, she took Leah with her because I wouldn’t dare drive her around in the Lamborghini. As I got in my car, my phone began to vibrate with a text from Chris.
12:15 Bae <3 : I hope you enjoyed breakfast with your family. Follow Mijo for your next destination, he knows you’re following him too so he shouldn’t leave you, if he does…I’ll kick his ass lol. See you soon babe.
12:17 Me : I did enjoy it, I’ve enjoyed everything so far. I can’t wait to see you. <33
C H R I S B R O W N:
I started planning everything the day after she took me back. I had to make sure this day didn’t go un-noticed. I had to make sure she knew how special she is to me. Regardless of how busy I’ve been, I cleared everything out of my schedule to plan this. Sevyn wasn’t really happy with that because she ended up having to apologize to a lot of companies and people but she understood why I was doing it. Honestly, all of this would have fallen apart if it wasn’t for her. I knew how I wanted to set everything up, I just didn’t know how to go about doing all of it. I left that all up to her and she came through, I couldn’t ask for a better assistant.
"You ready for the performance Boss Man?" Big Pat asked me as I put the rest of my blunt out in the ashtray. I can honestly say, after I stopped drinking…I stopped smoking as well. It’s just, I’m nervous as hell and at the moment, it seemed like the only thing that would calm me down.
"About as ready as I’ll ever be. Sev get everything straight?" I asked him as I got out of the tour bus and straightened myself up.
"Yeah, everything is ready and everyone is here. You got the ring?" As soon as he asked that, I began to panic as I felt around in my pocket.
"Fuck man! Where the fuck did I put it?" I hopped back on the bus and looked every where for it. After about two minutes of seeing me freak out, Big Pat finally cleared his throat and snapped the box of the ring shut before throwing it to me, asshole.
"Breezy, calm down man. You got this," he said as he dapped me up. I just shook my head as I tried to calm myself down. We then began to walk to the back of the stage without me being seen, but that soon failed as I got bombarded by fans. I hugged as many fans and took as many pictures as I could before Steve shut the whole operation down and refused to let any other fans through.
Today, I’m giving Virginia a little surprise as well as Serenity. I chose to give a little performance at King’s Dominion, the only amuesment park close to Richmond. I figured since I’ve been home for quite a while, the least I could do was give a free performance to anyone that comes to the amusement park today. I asked for it not to be advertised because Serenity would have definitely found out that way but even without it, as I looked out into the crowd from backstage, it was a good turn out. Serenity asked for me not to do anything all “extravagant,” an amusement park is far from extravagant but the way the performance is lined up, definitely is.
"Alright Bighead, you warmed up and ready? Ni-Ni and the rest of the family are on their way backstage. You go on in five minutes," Sevyn said as she plucked the back of my neck. I laughed as I shook my head. I warmed up earlier, it’s just the process of remembering everything I wanted to say that was the biggest task at hand. Soon, I heard a bunch of commotion backstage, I looked over to see my big ass family first. Then, I saw my girl..holding my baby girl…and every inch of nervousness I had quickly disappeared. It was at that moment that I knew exactly what I wanted to do, sing, and say in this performance.
I stepped on stage and the crowd went crazy. It’s been a while since I’ve performed here in Virginia, so I knew I had to make it one that each individual remembered until I could get out here for another show. Before the music started, I greeted the crowd and let them know that today’s show would be a little different from what they’re use to, and to bare with me. They seemed a little confused but as the music started, all of that seemed to go away. Don’t Wake Me Up was the first song and I sung, I looked back to see Ni-Ni swaying with Leah in her arms, I then remembered something that I had to share with the audience.
"Alright, so there’s this girl right? When I met her, I knew there was something special about her. So I did what any other guy would do, I stalked her," I said as I sat down on the edge of the stage as the music faded out, the crowd burst into laughter. "Nah seriously though, I just wanted some of her time, to get to know her better but she wasn’t having it. I went to an extreme and stole her car keys, making her go on a date with me to Red Robin," as I recalled the story, I couldn’t help but laugh right along with the crowd.
"On the way to Red Robin, I had to make her an offer…or deal. I asked her what her favorite song was. She told me it was, Don’t Wake Me Up. I told her that if I sung it for her in the car, she had to at least make an effort to have a good time with me, and try to get to know me…not Chris the superstar, but Chris…the guy that found her absolutely stunning." The audience let out a loud ass "awww," as they sat and listened to my story intently, they were loving every bit of this.
"She agreed, I sung it for her and she did her best to try and have a good time with me. Let’s just say the date didn’t go that well though. However, that wasn’t the last time I saw her. I came around often until she finally started warming up to me. I did things I thought I’d never do before, just for her. Honestly, she had me wrapped around her finger and she didn’t even know it. Then finally, she gave in and we gave that relationship thing a try and soon, it got rocky…I won’t even lie," after I finished, I looked back and told them to start the next song, Don’t Judge Me.
You’re hearing rumors about me
And you can’t stomach the thought
Of someone touching my body
When you’re so close to my heart
I won’t deny what they’re saying
Because most of it is true
But it was all before I felt for you
I stopped singing and let the crowd sing the chorus as I looked back at Serenity, her eyes looked glassy but she was all smiles.
"I’m being real with y’all right now, I messed up…badly, until she wanted nothing else to do with me. I worked hard to make it up to her though, and after a while she took me back. The previous stuff with the rumors and what not, didn’t even matter. She didn’t judge me. After that we were going strong, and I can honestly say…I fell in love. She did too, it was just at a slower pace. But, I told her I’d wait." I got mixed emotions from the crowd as the next song began to play, it seemed like they wanted me to tell more of my story before singing.
It seemed just like the perfect move at the time
For me to make you mine
(Girl you sexy from head to toe)
You said you think we should wait a while
And it might be hard but
But I won’t complain
You could’ve been anywhere else but you’re here with me
We can travel to space
As long as I got you right here next to me
Woahhh, girl I’ll wait
Ohhhh, for you, yes I will
Ohhhh, I said I’ll wait for you
"It seemed like nothing could separate us. Everything was going well and I couldn’t fall more in love with her. Then, I went and messed it all up…again," I said as the music still played in the background. The crowd sighed, like they were fed up with my bullshit as well, just from hearing the story.
"I know, I know. This time, it was serious. We ended it and I just knew my life was crashing down around me. I didn’t see her for months, it was very rare that I even talked to her. She was serious about letting me go. I didn’t deserve her, and she didn’t deserve to go through what I put her through, so I just let her have her space…that doesn’t mean I didn’t want it all back though" I cued the music and a song from a previous album blast through the speakers as I began to sing.
If I had the moment
I’d capture that moment
You would be right here next to me
If I had the secret,
The secret to your love,
I would place the treasure beneath my heart
Lock it all up,
And throw away the key
I would never give it up
Cause I was just a fool,
A fool for you
When I loved you so childishly
And I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all back
You never miss a good thing til it’s gone,
I want it all, now I want it all back
"Thanks to the good Lord above, I was blessed and got it all back. She came back to me and I’ve turned myself around, to make sure I never lose her…or someone else ever again. You guys ready to meet her?" The audience lit up at that question as the music died down. I watched as Big Pat sat out a chair on the stage. I then looked back at Serenity, her eyes got huge, I could tell she was mad confused.
"Alright, it’s her birthday. So in order for her to come out, I need you guys to help me sing Happy Birthday to her. Yall down?" They burst out in something I couldn’t quite comprehend but soon, the whole crowd blendend together with my voice as we sung happy birthday. Serenity slowly emerged out on stage with Leah still in her arms. She sat down in the chair as she wiped away tears and waved to the crowd. As we finished the song, I stood in front of her.
"Serenity, I can’t imagine life with out you. I want you by my side every step of the way. With everything we’ve been through, it only shows that we’re strong enough to handle anything else that may happen to come our way. I pray to God every day that he helps me make the right decisions though, because I don’t want to lose you. You took me exactly as I am, but I don’t mind altering myself to be the best man for you and to avoid hurting you. Listen, I want to try and make what we have official..again," I said as I got down on one knee and pulled the box out of my pocket. The audience went crazy as Serenity’s eyes lit up.
"Serenity Elizabeth McFadden, will you marry me?" Without hesitation, she shook her head. I then placed her new ring on her finger as the camera got a close up of it so the crowd could see it better on the screen above the stage. I could tell she was impressed with the ring as well with the way she kept looking down at it. I took her by her hand, standing her up from the chair so I could plant a kiss on her lips. Once again, the audience roared with applause and approval. After, I then turned around with Serenity’s hand in mine to address the crowd.
"There’s someone else I want you all to meet though…my daughter, Leah," I said. The camera quickly got a shot of Leah to display on the screen. After the crowd settled down, I went ahead and finished my closing of the show.
"Virginia, I want to thank you all for sharing this moment with me. I love being at home, you all show so much love. I love yall just as much, if not more. Along with my family, my fans are the most important thing to me. So, I thank yall for all the support with the album and I can’t wait to come back and give you guys an official concert. Thank you!" I said before bowing and leading Serenity backstage. As soon as I met the rest of my family, they congratulated us by swarming us in big ass hugs. I felt numb though, in a good way. The blunt I hit before had nothing on the natural high I had just from seeing the smile on my girl’s face, from hearing the applause and roar of the crowd out there.
It’s official. I’m not messing anything up. I meant everything I said, I want Serenity by my side through it all. I’ve never had a girl to hold me down the way she has. She’s honestly the only female that has ever been good for me. Tiffany, Rih and Kae, they led me down a path I shouldn’t have agreed to walk with them, and I ended up getting lost. Serenity though, she found me. She got me back on the right track, helping to clean up my scrapes and bruises along the way. I wouldn’t trade her or what we have for anything in this world. She and Leah…are my world. I thank God for seeing something good in me, and giving me another chance. The only place my soon to be Mrs. Breezy and I are going from here, is up, to better places and better things…to hopefully grow old with each other.
- THE END <3
To everyone that ever read, enjoyed, and left feedback for this fanfic…I honestly appreciate you. You have no idea how much of a better writer I’ve become all because of the dedicated readers I’ve had. This isn’t the end for Chrenity though, they’ll be back soon for the SEQUEL! (:
- Amber <3