S E R E N I T Y:
It seemed like hours passed before Big Pat finally came rushing towards Mama J and I in the waiting room, telling us we could go see Leah. The whole time we waited, Mama J and I talked about everything. She could tell how nervous I was. I think I had to be more nervous than Chris was. I know I talked a good game but I don’t know the first thing about being a mother. I just know that Chris needs me, he can’t do this by himself and once I agreed to take him back, I agreed to accept Leah too..they’re a packaged deal. However, Mama J talked some sense into me. She helped me see that I was made for this. I’ve always wanted a family, I didn’t think I’d have it this soon but I do and I’m grateful.
The first time I laid eyes on her, I knew I loved her. It was like an instant connection when Chris placed her in my arms. I honestly didn’t understand how Tiffany was able to turn her back on her daughter after seeing her. The emotions I felt rushing to me should have been felt by no one other than her birth mother, but there I stood…speechless as I held her. I made a promise to Leah that day, even though her birth mother couldn’t see that she’s a gift from God, I could. I promised to love her more than I’ve ever loved myself. By me being adopted, I know how crucial it is to make that connection early. My birth mother never made a connection with me even though she had me for four years. I can honestly say, I don’t remember much about her and it’s because she didn’t create that bond with me before she handed me over to another family. Therefore, I feel sorry for Tiffany if she ever does decide to come back in her life, it won’t be an easy process.
"You’re a natural," Chris said as he came into Leah’s room and stood beside me. The first night home, Mama J stayed over and helped me with everything but by the second day…I had everything quickly under control and in order. I guess I am a natural at this.
"So are you," I told him as I turned to face him. I was rocking Leah to sleep and from the looks of it, I was successful. I then kissed her cheek before handing her over to Chris. I walked out of her room and into the living room, sitting down on the couch. Chris soon followed me, sitting down and placing a fast asleep Leah on his chest. Watching Chris interact with his daughter the past three days has completely changed the way I looked at him. I’ve never seen him so gentle and so caring. I didn’t think it was possible to fall more in love with him in just three days, but I did.
"Come here," he said as he tugged at my elbow so I could lay beside him on the couch. I rested my head on the side of his torso that Leah wasn’t on. It was silent for a while as I just watched his chest move up and down as he drew circles with his finger on my back. "You think you slick, huh?" he asked softly, careful not to wake Leah.
"What are you talking about Brown?" I replied as I took Leah’s blanket from behind Chris and wrapped her in it, I was beginning to get cold so I know she was.
"You thought just by not talking about your birthday, a nigga would forget. Too bad I didn’t," he said as he shot me that goofy ass smile that I grew to love so much. I just giggled to myself as I looked at him. I was kind of hoping he would forget. I’ve never been one to want a lot of attention on my birthday. It’s just another day and I’m just another year older, it’s not that big of a deal. I don’t mind going all out for others on their birthday, it’s just…I don’t want anyone to go all out for me..for one day. I just can’t get with that whole idea of people treating their birthdays like it’s basically a holiday.
"Christopher, I don’t want or need anything all extravagant. Just having you and Leah is honestly the best gift anyone could ever ask for," I told him as I reached up and pecked his cheek.
"Yeah yeah yeah, I hear you. You can’t expect me to just pretend like the day doesn’t exist though. I promise I won’t go all out like I had planned to but…" he stopped talking as his eyes trailed off from looking down at me to staring up at the wall, he had something up his sleeve.
"But….what? Just spit it out Chris," I teased as I poked his side. He jerked and startled Leah but she quickly fell back asleep.
"Reach in my pocket," he said as he looked back down at me. I rolled my eyes as I began to sit up. "Nah, not like that. Seriously, I need you to get something for me," he said as he pulled me back down. I did as he said and reached into the pocket of his sweat pants and pulled out two sets of keys. I was confused.
"Why do you have two sets of keys in your pocket?" I asked him. He just swung his legs off of the couch and carefully got up with Leah. He then disarmed the alarm to the front door before standing in front of it. "You going to get up, or what?" I got up from the couch and he opened the door for me, I walked out first and he soon followed. He then led the way to the garage. He disarmed the alarm for it and opened it, I couldn’t believe my eyes.
"Chris…" I couldn’t even think of anything else to say as my Lexus sat in the garage with a new paint job and new rims. I left my car in Louisiana when I left for Paris so the trouble he went through to get it in Virginia meant more to me than the actual car.
"I thought I’d shine your baby up for you. I know how much your first car means to you so I brought it up here," he said as he walked over to me and placed his arm around my waist, kissing my forehead.
"Thank you so much baby. I love it but, what’s the other key for?" I asked as I looked down at the second pair of keys I had in my hand. He passed Leah to me and walked over to the car that had a covering on it. He pulled the covering back and a Lamborghini with a camo paint job to match his stared back at me.
"Chris, baby…what on earth—"
"I heard you talking about how much you liked my Lambo once I got the paint job, so I went ahead and got my baby one too. So when everybody sees you, they know that’s me," he said proudly. I just shook my head as I smiled at him. I couldn’t even lie, I did like the car and I couldn’t wait to drive in it.
"Lord, what other 19 year old do you know that drives a Lamborghini?" I said as I began to open up the car and check it out. He took Leah from me and got in the passenger side. I took that as my cue to go ahead and drive it, just around the block though because we didn’t have Leah’s car seat with us to go any farther.
"I had one when I was 19," he said as I pulled out of the garage. I had to adjust to how quickly this car took off.
"Let me rephrase that for you, what normal 19 year old drives a Lamborghini?" He just laughed as he re-positioned Leah in his arms.
"When will you realize you aren’t a normal 19 year old either?" he asked. I just brushed him off as I started to make my way back to the condo. People were already gawking at the car, wondering who was inside. Chris has driven his Lambo around pretty often so they probably thought it was him in the driver’s seat. I was just thankful that the windows were tinted. Minutes later we finally pulled back into the garage and I looked over to see Leah was stirring and finally woke back up.
"I’m going to make dinner. I think it’s daddy’s turn to give his princess a bath," I told Chris as we got back inside the house. He stopped dead in his tracks as he looked at me.
"Babe, I don’t know how to give her a bath. How about I make dinner and you make her smell good because I think she just shit too," he said as he wrinkled his nose and held her in the air. I just shook my head as I took Leah into my arms. Before I walked away, I tugged on his shirt so he lowered himself down to my height. I then placed a kiss on his lips.
"Thank you for my gifts babe. I love them, not as much as I love you though," I told him.
"I’m glad you like it and I love you too baby. What you want for dinner though?"
"You volunteered, you think of something," I told him as I stuck my tongue out and made my way to Leah’s room. I took off her dirty diaper then got her ready for bath time. She’s about the only baby I know that absolutely loves to take a bath. Most babies scream to the top of their lungs when a drop of water touches them but not Leah, she’s all smiles and giggles when I bathe her.
About 15 minutes later, I finished bathing Leah and dried her off. Chris managed to have dinner ready in thirty minutes afterwards. He ended up making tacos, way too many for only two of us to eat but it was good nonetheless. While we ate, I fed Leah her bottle and rocked her until she fell asleep again. I kept questioning Chris on his plans for tomorrow but he quickly caught on and kept quiet so he didn’t spoil whatever he had planned for my birthday. After a while, I just stopped trying. Chris is going to be Chris and whatever he does, I’m pretty sure I’ll get over the intitial shock of it and end up liking it…I always do.
The next day, I woke up to an unusually silent home. By this time, I’d hear the baby monitors going off with Leah’s crying or Chris in the kitchen, doing his best to fix a bottle or breakfast for us. Instead, I rolled over to a piece of paper with a bunch of Chris’ artwork on it and a messily written note. :
To the love of my life,
I know I said I wasn’t going to do anything all extravagant but honestly ma, you deserve it. You’ve stuck by my side when anyone else would have walked away from me. You’ve held me down when I was at my worst and helped me get to a point where I was at my best. I honestly don’t know where I’d be without you. I thank you for giving me another chance and I swear I know what to do with it this time. You and Leah are honestly the best part of my day and I’ll do all I can to make sure I never lose either of you. So, with that being said…today is your day ma. Get dressed and head to the address on the back of this note where you’ll enjoy breakfast. Don’t worry, Leah is with my mom and you’ll meet up with them soon. Happy birthday though Ni-Ni, I love you baby.
I wiped away the tears that puddled under my eyes as I read the note. I think this note will mean so much more to me than anything else he has planned, simply because it’s rare for him to express his feelings like that. After a while I finally got myself together and went into the closet to pick out something to wear. To my surprise, there was an outfit with plastic covering over it and a note that read “Wear this” tapped to it. I smiled as I took off the covering and fell in love with the simple outfit he must have gotten Sevyn or his mom to pick out. I then ran to the bathroom to shower. About 30 minutes later I got out and blow dried my hair. I ended up just putting it in a braid after I thought about what I could be doing today, it couldn’t be anything that required me to be all fancy.
I then finally got dressed and picked up the note, my phone, and began to search for my keys. I finally found them in the kitchen where a note was placed beside it that read “Take the Lambo today.” I just shook my head as I walked out of the condo and into the garage. I opened up the door to the Lambo and rose petals and the scent of Chris’ cologne filled the car. I then looked at the passenger side and saw a Samsung Galaxy 4 box with another note attached to it in the seat. : “I didn’t forget how you said you were tired of your iPhone and wanted this instead either. Your other phone has already been deactivated and this one is set up and ready to go. I put the address on the note in the GPS system, just follow the directions and you’ll be at your destination shortly. Hope you’re enjoying your little scavenger hunt so far. ;)”
I pulled the phone out of the box and smiled at the picture of all three of us as my wallpaper. I then found the case he bought me and put it on so I wouldn’t drop it and break it within the first day I got it. After I got everything straight, I started the car and followed the GPS directions. I was soon in the heart of Richmond and ended up at a very small restaurant in the mist of a strip mall. I parked my car and noticed there were pink balloons attached to the arch of the door. I got out and made my way up to the entrance of Family Secrets and went in.
"Surprise! Happy Birthday Ni-Ni" I looked around to see the faces of Chris’ family and friends, and my family, from my parents right on down to Mackenzie. I was soon swarmed with hugs and kisses from everyone as they wished me happy birthday individually. I didn’t even notice I was crying for what had to be the third time today. To see everyone I love stop what they were doing to come to Virginia for me, it meant everything to me.
Mama J was the last to greet me with Leah in her arms and I remembered that this would be the first time that they all got to meet her. I ended up telling my mom the whole story behind Leah but she made up some lie to tell my dad, simply because she knew how much I didn’t want him to judge Chris or our situation. He still didn’t like the fact that I was “acting” like a mother at such a young age but, this isn’t an act…I’ve fully taken on this responsibility as if it was my own to begin with.
"Alright now, everybody eat up so we can meet Chris at Serenity’s final present for today!" Mama J said as the staff of the restaurant began to bring out our food. I sat down by Macki and Ashley while my mom and dad were intrigued over Leah. Mijo, Kid Red, Austin and a couple of Chris’ other cousins that I haven’t met came over to meet me and my family. We all ate and enjoyed conversation for a good hour until Mama J began to round everyone up to head to their own cars. Again, she took Leah with her because I wouldn’t dare drive her around in the Lamborghini. As I got in my car, my phone began to vibrate with a text from Chris.
12:15 Bae <3 : I hope you enjoyed breakfast with your family. Follow Mijo for your next destination, he knows you’re following him too so he shouldn’t leave you, if he does…I’ll kick his ass lol. See you soon babe.
12:17 Me : I did enjoy it, I’ve enjoyed everything so far. I can’t wait to see you. <33
C H R I S B R O W N:
I started planning everything the day after she took me back. I had to make sure this day didn’t go un-noticed. I had to make sure she knew how special she is to me. Regardless of how busy I’ve been, I cleared everything out of my schedule to plan this. Sevyn wasn’t really happy with that because she ended up having to apologize to a lot of companies and people but she understood why I was doing it. Honestly, all of this would have fallen apart if it wasn’t for her. I knew how I wanted to set everything up, I just didn’t know how to go about doing all of it. I left that all up to her and she came through, I couldn’t ask for a better assistant.
"You ready for the performance Boss Man?" Big Pat asked me as I put the rest of my blunt out in the ashtray. I can honestly say, after I stopped drinking…I stopped smoking as well. It’s just, I’m nervous as hell and at the moment, it seemed like the only thing that would calm me down.
"About as ready as I’ll ever be. Sev get everything straight?" I asked him as I got out of the tour bus and straightened myself up.
"Yeah, everything is ready and everyone is here. You got the ring?" As soon as he asked that, I began to panic as I felt around in my pocket.
"Fuck man! Where the fuck did I put it?" I hopped back on the bus and looked every where for it. After about two minutes of seeing me freak out, Big Pat finally cleared his throat and snapped the box of the ring shut before throwing it to me, asshole.
"Breezy, calm down man. You got this," he said as he dapped me up. I just shook my head as I tried to calm myself down. We then began to walk to the back of the stage without me being seen, but that soon failed as I got bombarded by fans. I hugged as many fans and took as many pictures as I could before Steve shut the whole operation down and refused to let any other fans through.
Today, I’m giving Virginia a little surprise as well as Serenity. I chose to give a little performance at King’s Dominion, the only amuesment park close to Richmond. I figured since I’ve been home for quite a while, the least I could do was give a free performance to anyone that comes to the amusement park today. I asked for it not to be advertised because Serenity would have definitely found out that way but even without it, as I looked out into the crowd from backstage, it was a good turn out. Serenity asked for me not to do anything all “extravagant,” an amusement park is far from extravagant but the way the performance is lined up, definitely is.
"Alright Bighead, you warmed up and ready? Ni-Ni and the rest of the family are on their way backstage. You go on in five minutes," Sevyn said as she plucked the back of my neck. I laughed as I shook my head. I warmed up earlier, it’s just the process of remembering everything I wanted to say that was the biggest task at hand. Soon, I heard a bunch of commotion backstage, I looked over to see my big ass family first. Then, I saw my girl..holding my baby girl…and every inch of nervousness I had quickly disappeared. It was at that moment that I knew exactly what I wanted to do, sing, and say in this performance.
I stepped on stage and the crowd went crazy. It’s been a while since I’ve performed here in Virginia, so I knew I had to make it one that each individual remembered until I could get out here for another show. Before the music started, I greeted the crowd and let them know that today’s show would be a little different from what they’re use to, and to bare with me. They seemed a little confused but as the music started, all of that seemed to go away. Don’t Wake Me Up was the first song and I sung, I looked back to see Ni-Ni swaying with Leah in her arms, I then remembered something that I had to share with the audience.
"Alright, so there’s this girl right? When I met her, I knew there was something special about her. So I did what any other guy would do, I stalked her," I said as I sat down on the edge of the stage as the music faded out, the crowd burst into laughter. "Nah seriously though, I just wanted some of her time, to get to know her better but she wasn’t having it. I went to an extreme and stole her car keys, making her go on a date with me to Red Robin," as I recalled the story, I couldn’t help but laugh right along with the crowd.
"On the way to Red Robin, I had to make her an offer…or deal. I asked her what her favorite song was. She told me it was, Don’t Wake Me Up. I told her that if I sung it for her in the car, she had to at least make an effort to have a good time with me, and try to get to know me…not Chris the superstar, but Chris…the guy that found her absolutely stunning." The audience let out a loud ass "awww," as they sat and listened to my story intently, they were loving every bit of this.
"She agreed, I sung it for her and she did her best to try and have a good time with me. Let’s just say the date didn’t go that well though. However, that wasn’t the last time I saw her. I came around often until she finally started warming up to me. I did things I thought I’d never do before, just for her. Honestly, she had me wrapped around her finger and she didn’t even know it. Then finally, she gave in and we gave that relationship thing a try and soon, it got rocky…I won’t even lie," after I finished, I looked back and told them to start the next song, Don’t Judge Me.
You’re hearing rumors about me
And you can’t stomach the thought
Of someone touching my body
When you’re so close to my heart
I won’t deny what they’re saying
Because most of it is true
But it was all before I felt for you
I stopped singing and let the crowd sing the chorus as I looked back at Serenity, her eyes looked glassy but she was all smiles.
"I’m being real with y’all right now, I messed up…badly, until she wanted nothing else to do with me. I worked hard to make it up to her though, and after a while she took me back. The previous stuff with the rumors and what not, didn’t even matter. She didn’t judge me. After that we were going strong, and I can honestly say…I fell in love. She did too, it was just at a slower pace. But, I told her I’d wait." I got mixed emotions from the crowd as the next song began to play, it seemed like they wanted me to tell more of my story before singing.
It seemed just like the perfect move at the time
For me to make you mine
(Girl you sexy from head to toe)
You said you think we should wait a while
And it might be hard but
But I won’t complain
You could’ve been anywhere else but you’re here with me
We can travel to space
As long as I got you right here next to me
Woahhh, girl I’ll wait
Ohhhh, for you, yes I will
Ohhhh, I said I’ll wait for you
"It seemed like nothing could separate us. Everything was going well and I couldn’t fall more in love with her. Then, I went and messed it all up…again," I said as the music still played in the background. The crowd sighed, like they were fed up with my bullshit as well, just from hearing the story.
"I know, I know. This time, it was serious. We ended it and I just knew my life was crashing down around me. I didn’t see her for months, it was very rare that I even talked to her. She was serious about letting me go. I didn’t deserve her, and she didn’t deserve to go through what I put her through, so I just let her have her space…that doesn’t mean I didn’t want it all back though" I cued the music and a song from a previous album blast through the speakers as I began to sing.
If I had the moment
I’d capture that moment
You would be right here next to me
If I had the secret,
The secret to your love,
I would place the treasure beneath my heart
Lock it all up,
And throw away the key
I would never give it up
Cause I was just a fool,
A fool for you
When I loved you so childishly
And I want it all back
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all back
You never miss a good thing til it’s gone,
I want it all, now I want it all back
"Thanks to the good Lord above, I was blessed and got it all back. She came back to me and I’ve turned myself around, to make sure I never lose her…or someone else ever again. You guys ready to meet her?" The audience lit up at that question as the music died down. I watched as Big Pat sat out a chair on the stage. I then looked back at Serenity, her eyes got huge, I could tell she was mad confused.
"Alright, it’s her birthday. So in order for her to come out, I need you guys to help me sing Happy Birthday to her. Yall down?" They burst out in something I couldn’t quite comprehend but soon, the whole crowd blendend together with my voice as we sung happy birthday. Serenity slowly emerged out on stage with Leah still in her arms. She sat down in the chair as she wiped away tears and waved to the crowd. As we finished the song, I stood in front of her.
"Serenity, I can’t imagine life with out you. I want you by my side every step of the way. With everything we’ve been through, it only shows that we’re strong enough to handle anything else that may happen to come our way. I pray to God every day that he helps me make the right decisions though, because I don’t want to lose you. You took me exactly as I am, but I don’t mind altering myself to be the best man for you and to avoid hurting you. Listen, I want to try and make what we have official..again," I said as I got down on one knee and pulled the box out of my pocket. The audience went crazy as Serenity’s eyes lit up.
"Serenity Elizabeth McFadden, will you marry me?" Without hesitation, she shook her head. I then placed her new ring on her finger as the camera got a close up of it so the crowd could see it better on the screen above the stage. I could tell she was impressed with the ring as well with the way she kept looking down at it. I took her by her hand, standing her up from the chair so I could plant a kiss on her lips. Once again, the audience roared with applause and approval. After, I then turned around with Serenity’s hand in mine to address the crowd.
"There’s someone else I want you all to meet though…my daughter, Leah," I said. The camera quickly got a shot of Leah to display on the screen. After the crowd settled down, I went ahead and finished my closing of the show.
"Virginia, I want to thank you all for sharing this moment with me. I love being at home, you all show so much love. I love yall just as much, if not more. Along with my family, my fans are the most important thing to me. So, I thank yall for all the support with the album and I can’t wait to come back and give you guys an official concert. Thank you!" I said before bowing and leading Serenity backstage. As soon as I met the rest of my family, they congratulated us by swarming us in big ass hugs. I felt numb though, in a good way. The blunt I hit before had nothing on the natural high I had just from seeing the smile on my girl’s face, from hearing the applause and roar of the crowd out there.
It’s official. I’m not messing anything up. I meant everything I said, I want Serenity by my side through it all. I’ve never had a girl to hold me down the way she has. She’s honestly the only female that has ever been good for me. Tiffany, Rih and Kae, they led me down a path I shouldn’t have agreed to walk with them, and I ended up getting lost. Serenity though, she found me. She got me back on the right track, helping to clean up my scrapes and bruises along the way. I wouldn’t trade her or what we have for anything in this world. She and Leah…are my world. I thank God for seeing something good in me, and giving me another chance. The only place my soon to be Mrs. Breezy and I are going from here, is up, to better places and better things…to hopefully grow old with each other.
- THE END <3
To everyone that ever read, enjoyed, and left feedback for this fanfic…I honestly appreciate you. You have no idea how much of a better writer I’ve become all because of the dedicated readers I’ve had. This isn’t the end for Chrenity though, they’ll be back soon for the SEQUEL! (:
- Amber <3
C H R I S B R O W N:
It took a fucking hour to get to the hospital because of the traffic. The whole time I tried calling Tiffany back, but she never answered. I finally just gave up with that and called the front desk. They told me what room she was in and that although she wasn’t supposed to give me such information over the phone, she didn’t suspect that any child had been born yet. I was relieved once I heard that and finally calmed down the rest of the way to the hospital.
"Y’all stay out here, I’m the only one allowed back there. Once baby girl is here, I’ll come right back out and let y’all know," I said to my mom and Serenity as I checked into the front desk. They all agreed and sat down as Big Pat and I made our way to the elevators.
I don’t know why I expected different, but the camera phone light shows began as we waited. Shit. I knew it was only time before TMZ and Perez Hilton had everything on their blogs. I could just imagine the headlines, questioning why I was racing around like a mad man in St. Mary’s, in Virginia when I was supposed to be in France. Whatever though, as long as they don’t find out the real reason, then I’m straight. When I’m ready for the world to know about Leah, that’s when they’ll find out.
"Yo, tell my mom and Serenity not to talk to anybody out there…whatsoever," I told Big Pat as he got out his phone to text them, it wasn’t a good signal in here to call.
"You good Breezy?" he asked as he put the phone back in his pocket. I just shook my head as I watched the numbers on the elevator increase as we made it to Tiffany’s floor. We walked out of the elevator and thankfully, no one was really around but the nurses and other staff. We walked around for another five minutes before we were finally in front of room 156, Tiffany’s room.
"Aye, grab that chair and pop a squat outside the door. I’m not trying to hear her mouth with you being in there and all that other unnecessary shit," I told Pat. He agreed and stole a swivel chair from the nurse’s desk and placed it under the window of the room before sitting in it. I shook my head as I took a deep breath, placing my hand on the door. I knocked twice before I opened it and walked in. I took in my surroundings and got uneasy as I did. I hate hospitals, I always have.
"What the fuck is he doing here Tiff?" I looked in the direction the voice came from and saw Mr. Kevin Durant himself, sitting by the window. All the trouble that nigga has caused me, I had the right mind to knock the glass out of the window and pitch him out of it, eleven stories high. Instead, I shoved my hands in my pocket as I leaned against the wall, looking at Tiffany. She sat herself up on her elbows as she looked back at me over her belly. It was huge, a lot bigger than I remember it being the last time I saw her. I found it fascinating.
"Shut up, you know why he’s here. You don’t want the child and neither do I. It’s his so he came to claim it," she told him as she grabbed a cup from the table beside her and began to drink from it. "Honestly, I didn’t think you’d show up. I guess I should cancel the adopting family thing, huh?"
"Yeah, you need to. What’s with you referring to your daughter, as "it" though? How are you able to so easily detach yourself from something you’ve carried for almost nine months?" I had to know. She was driving me crazy with this attitude, like she didn’t care. I know deep down inside, she does.
"Does it matter nigga? No, it doesn’t. I made a mistake that night and I don’t want to look in the face of a mistake for the rest of my life," she spat.
"Let’s not forget that at the same time you thought you were trapping me, you trapped your damn self. Does Mr. Durant know about that?" I asked as I looked in his direction. I know damn well she’s not about to sit here and act like she didn’t come up with the master plan to seduce me and poke unnoticeable holes in the condom, thinking I’d take her back if she was having my child.
"Fuck is he talking about?" he asked as he hopped up from his chair. I wish this nigga would try something, at least we only a couple floors from the Emergency Room.
"Nothing baby, relax," she said to him. "Chris, just shut the fuck up. I’m not in the mood to—" before she could finish, she doubled over in pain as one of the monitors began to beep loudly. I stood there dumbfounded as the doctors and nurses rushed into the room.
"Who’s the father of this child?" They asked in the mist of all the chaos. It took me a while to progress everything but I soon got it together and told them I was. In the same motion, they threw scrubs at me and kicked Kevin out of the room.
"Mr. Brown, we’re going to have to do an emergency C-section. At this point, there are no fatal threats for your girl friend or the baby but to avoid them, it’s just better to do it this way. Put on those scrubs and follow us to the room for surgery," the doctor said as he left the room. The nurses finished shooting what I guessed was pain medicine in Tiffany’s back before following the doctor with Tiffany’s bed out of the door. I walked past Big Pat and nudged his shoulder, the nigga had fallen asleep. He woke up and noticed my attire, he then put on goofy ass smile as he saluted me while I walked down the hallway.
"Aye, you tell these people I’m your boyfriend?" I asked Tiffany as we got into the room, trying to make light of the situaiton. I then helped the nurses get her up from her bed and onto the operating table. She groggily flicked me off as I guess the pain medicine was doing it’s job.
"Alright sweetie, the medicine we gave you early is to keep you from feeling any pain. However, you’re going to feel a lot of pressure but that’s normal. Just stay calm and relax, your bundle of joy should be here soon," the nurse said before disappearing into another part of the room. I sat down on a stool next to Tiffany.
"You hear that? "Bundle of joy," not "mistake and disappointment." I wish you were as happy about baby girl as I am. It would have made this whole situation a little better to deal with if I had your support like you have mine. We can’t go back and change what we did but the baby doesn’t have to suffer because of it." She just closed her eyes as the doctor came into the room and let us know he would begin the surgery. I don’t know if she did it because she was scared, or it was her way of apologizing but Tiffany put her arm down and held out her hand, waiting for me to hold it. It wasn’t until I heard the operation beginning and she winced at the pressure she must have been feeling, that I held onto her hand…she was scared.
It felt like hours passed before I finally heard her. As they pulled her out of Tiffany, they suctioned her mouth and nose, then laid her directly on Tiffany’s chest. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I didn’t understand how my dumbass helped create something so beautiful. They then took baby girl off of Tiffany’s chest so the doctor could stitch her up and the nurses could clean off the baby.
"Thank you," I whispered in her ear before pecking her forehead. I then got up to go see my baby girl. She was all clean now and I swear she started to look more and more like me as I stared at her.
"You have a perfectly healthy baby girl Mr. Brown, congratulations," the nurse said as she placed my bundled joy in my arms. I kissed my baby girl’s forehead as I walked back towards Tiffany. I sat back down so she could take a better look at her.
"She looks just like you," she said. I noticed the tears in her eyes and realized my words or finally seeing the baby, must have gotten to her. "Chris, please don’t think I’m heartless or I’m just out to hurt you and the baby…but as much as I want to be a mother to her, I can’t. I don’t know how and I don’t want to deprive her of the better life she’ll have without me. I know that sounds strange but, it’s true. She needs her dad, and I know you’ll be the best father she could ever ask for. If it’s worth anything, I’m sorry for all of this…for everything." As she finished, she wiped away tears that fell from my own eyes as a nurse came over with a pen and clipboard in her hand.
"You both figure out a name for her yet?" she asked. I looked at Tiffany who was just as caught off guard as I was when Serenity asked me. However, I shook my head and cleared my throat as I looked down at my daughter.
"Leah Marie Brown," I stated. I then looked down at Tiffany as she shook her head in approval. The nurse showed me the clipboard to make sure she spelled it right, I then shook my head in approval as well.
"Look, there are two amazing women waiting in the lobby that have already agreed to stand by my side and help me raise Leah. One, being my mother and the other…being my girl. Serenity has agreed to play the role of a mother for Leah if you can’t, and I wouldn’t choose anyone else to take on that job. Now, I’m not going to take away your right to see Leah or be with her, you can come see her any time you’d like. Actually, I’d like if you were apart of her life. It’s all up to you though, I’m not going to force anything on you."
"Thank you Chris. Honestly, I believe Serenity will be a better mother than I could ever be to Leah. If things happen to change and I’m ready to come into her life, I’ll give you a call but once that mother/daughter relationship is established between Leah and Serenity, I’ll never come in between that. Thanks for leaving a door to her life open for me though."
It was the first time in months that were actually able to talk like civil, human beings. It was the first time in a while that she talked out of what I could see was love, instead of anger and hatred. It was the first time she actually made perfect sense in what she was saying. I understood her. I understood our situation. I saw Tiffany in a more positive and appreciating way, and I know she feels the same about me. I never said this would be easy, but by us being on the same page…Leah won’t grow up in a hostile environment. She’ll grow up being loved unconditionally by myself, Serenity, and our families. Hopefully, she’ll experience that love from her birth mother as well…one day.
C H R I S B R O W N:
Serenity slept the whole plane ride back to Virginia, I knew she had to be tired from the night before. It’s true what they say…make up sex is always the best sex. Honestly though, it wasn’t just sex to me….it was me promising her that she was, is, and will always be the love of my life. I’ve never felt more close to her. I feel like she finally let down this wall with me, she gave me all of her and I did the same. I wanted to make her feel special, make her feel like she’s never felt before and I think I was successful.
"Nothing has changed since I left. It feels good to be back home, where I belong," Serenity said as she wandered into the condo as I sat down the bags by the door. She’s right, I haven’t changed anything since she left, mainly because I couldn’t bare to live here with her being gone, I stayed with my mom the whole time.
"It definitely feels good to have you home bae," I told her as I pulled her into my arms, kissing her forehead. "You know I love you right?" I asked as I looked her in the eye. I feel like I have to say it more often than I did before, just so she knows and never forgets it.
"I love you too Brown. I just….need to ask you something," she said as she sat down on the couch, playing with the studs on her phone case. She avoided all eye contact with me as I sat down beside her, I knew this was serious.
"What’s on your mind bae?" I said as I slid closer to her, preparing myself for what was coming next.
"I know you said you didn’t do anything with anyone in France, and you hadn’t planned on doing anything…so why were there condoms in your bag?" I thought back to what she was referring to and had to keep myself from laughing as I remembered how the condoms ended up in my bag.
"I didn’t bring any with me, they were Big Pat’s. When we first got back to your hotel, before I got in the shower that night…he shot me a text, saying he put them in there…already knowing what we were going to get into. I’m thankful he did too, somebody is a fucking freak!" I said as I wrapped my arm around her. She playfully hit my chest while shaking her head, a smile adorning her lips, her cheeks becoming rosy.
"Oh my gosh, shut up Christopher," she said as she got up and headed to the back.
"What? You trying to break in the bed already?" I playfully shouted behind her. She emerged back into the living room, shaking her head.
"Get over yourself Brown, come on, let’s go get this crib ready," she said as she put her hand in mine, guiding me to the guest room and soon to be room for my daughter. I got Sev to order everything I needed and have it delivered by the time we got back home. My daughter’s room is equipped with a crib and a changing station. Serenity, my mom and I are going out later to pick up clothes as well. Even though this caught me off guard, I refuse to let my daughter come in to this world without everything she needs.
"So what are you going to name your daughter?" As soon as she said that, my face fell to the ground. Fuck. That totally slipped my mind. With the whole release of the album, talking about touring and everything…I absolutely had no time to think of anything else.
"Damn….I don’t have a clue what her name should be. I want it to be something unique though, but still sophisticated enough that if she ever decided she wanted to work…they wouldn’t judge her from the name on her application. You feel me?" I said as I helped her neatly place the pink covers into the wooden crib. Sev did a nice job picking everything out, it damn sure was better than what I could have done.
"Well you’re in luck, I’ve been thinking of names since I found out about your little princess. What about…Riley Cherie Brown?" I thought it over, liking it less and less because I can already see myself slipping up and referring to my baby girl as "Ri" for her nickname…hell nah.
"Nah, shoot me another suggestion," I told her as I began reading the instructions, putting the finishing touches on the changing station and the dividers I had Sevyn order for the closet, just because I know Serenity is a neat freak and the dividers will help baby girl’s closet stay in some type of order.
"Well…what about Leah Marie Brown? I know that was Grandma Susie’s middle name…I thought that would be the perfect way to honor her, by them both having the same middle name," Serenity said as she sat down in the rocking chair across from me. I took a break from looking over the instructions, to think over the name. I like it. I knew she could tell too, because of the goofy ass smile I knew I was giving her.
"Leah Marie Brown it is then!" she said as she came over and pecked my lips. "You hurry up and finish this stuff. I’m going to take a shower and get dressed so we can meet up with your mom at the mall in less than two hours, you know she doesn’t like to be kept waiting Christopher,"
"Yeah okay, I’ll be in there in a second," I told her, wondering if she would pick up on my little innuendo. Seconds later, one of the stuffed animals from Leah’s crib came cascading towards my forehead, she caught on.
"I’m locking the door, so no you won’t," she had as she stuck her tongue out and headed for the bathroom. I was about to chase her but the vibration of my phone prevented me from doing so. I looked down at it and saw my mom was calling, right on time.
"Hey mama, wassup?" I asked her as I wandered into the kitchen, opening up the refrigerator.
"Close the refrigerator, you know I’m cooking once we get back from the mall." I sucked my teeth as I closed the door, I swear she got supersonic hearing or some shit. "Sheesh, what you want Ma?" I asked her as I quietly got a snack from the cabinet, shit..I’m hungry, it’s not like I’m going to refuse anything my mother cooks, and she knows that.
"Christopher Maurice Brown, I’m just going to pretend your high yellow ass didn’t just talk to me like that. Anyway, what mall are we going to and is Big Pat or Steve coming along? I don’t have time for any groupies today while I shop for my granddaughter."
"Not all fans are groupies Ma, and I think we should hit up Short Pump and I’ll keep Big Pat on standby. Oh, and guess who else is coming with us," I told my mom. I left out the part about Serenity coming to Paris and taking a nigga back, I wanted it to be a surprise when she saw her but I thought about the people we’d be around and I didn’t want her to make a scene at Short Pump mall.
"Who Christopher? You went to Paris and found someone else didn’t you?" I could just imagine her rolling her eyes on the other side of the phone.
"Ma, no…I didn’t find someone else, I was a little too busy persuading Ni-Ni to take me back. Which, she did and she’s back home with a nigga!" I heard her gasp as something happened to the phone, like she dropped it or something from excitement.
"I am so happy. I can’t wait to see my baby! Christopher, you better thank God for giving you a second chance and you sure as hell better know what to do with it."
"I do Ma, I swear she not going anywhere and I’m not going to mess it up."
"That’s what I like to hear. Now, hurry it up and get over here so I can see my baby Serenity! Love yall."
"We love you too Ma, see you soon," and with that, she hung up. While Serenity was still in the shower, I took that time to find something to wear and hop in the shower myself. I decided on a simple pair of Levi’s, a Bulls jersey, and my Breds. I then made my way to the second bathroom of the house and got in the shower. Twenty minutes had passed before Serenity came wandering into the bathroom, in nothing but a towel with damp hair and body lotion in her hand. I watched her through the clear door of the shower, I could see her perfectly as well as she could see me.
"The hell you doing girl?" I said loud enough so she could hear me over the running water. She didn’t answer me as she pumped the lotion into her hand, swung her damp hair over her shoulder, and seductively bent over to put the lotion on her legs. I looked down and saw my member standing at full attention. Fuck.
"Aye look, I just know you don’t plan on making me take care of this myself," I said as I opened up the door to the shower.
"Do you really think I’m that cruel Brown?" she said as the towel dropped to her ankles, and she made her way over to me.
"What’s gotten into you, ma?" I asked her as she guided me over to the bench like area in the shower that was for the sauna affect I had programmed in here. She sat me down and danced in front of me with so much precision and control. I’m loving this new found confidence her weight loss has given her, even though she was perfect in my eyes before it. I guess she just had to do it for herself, and I completely understood that.
"Tell me you love me," she whispered in my ear, totally avoiding the question. I sucked my teeth, the hell she thought this was, bossing me around with the shit I just used on her the previous night?
"I’ll tell you, but on my own damn time," I teased her. She laughed as she stopped dancing and headed for the shower door. I quickly got up and pulled her by the arm, if she thought she was leaving, she thought wrong. I gently pinned her up against the wall, up under the shower head, the water cascading down on us both. I kissed her lips as I let my hand slide across her center. I played with her for a minute, trying to tease her like she teased me. I saw she was biting her lip hard as hell though, any harder..she would’ve drawn blood. So I decided to stop messing with her and give her what she wanted. I guided her back down to the bench, making her spread them legs so my shit was visible. I got down to her level, trailing kisses on the inside of her thigh. She began pulling at my hair, knowing all to well what she really wanted, so I gave it to her. I kissed her center before sliding my tongue in. She tangled her hand in my hair, pushing me further. It wasn’t long before she began to shake uncontrollably, releasing on my tongue.
"Shit Chris, this is not what I had planned," she said as I came up to kiss her, "Talk to me then baby, what you had planned?" I whispered against her lips. She got up, making me trade places with her. She sat me down, easing herself on me.
"This," she whispered in my ear as she rocked her hips back and forth. "Tell me you love me," she whispered again, like she was in control. I wasn’t about to let her know she was. She smiled as she burried her face into my neck, holding herself up by the wall in the shower. I put my hands on her hip, bringing her down to ease more of me inside her as I let my hand and tongue give her breasts attention. She quickly lost all control of this situation, I commend her for her efforts though.
"Chrissss, I-I-I’m gonna—"
"Go ahead," I said as I cut her off, knowing all too well what she was going to say. Before she could though, I pulled her get up so I could teasingly pull out. I then made her bend over the bench I was sitting on. I slowly went back inside, slowing up the pace of my stroke as I felt her tighten around me, arching her back. Her legs began to shake again as she brought her hand down and quickly rubbed her clit, speeding up the process. She released all over me and her hand. She brought her finger up to my lips and I licked the rest of her juices off, I swear I don’t know where the freak in her has been hiding all along.
"Chris, your mom is waiting," she managed to say. I forgot all about that but honestly, I wasn’t quite done yet and I think she knew it.
"I’ll apologize when I get there," I told her as I pulled out and traded places with her again. I decided I’d give her a little control over this situation again. I sat back down and she eased her way back on top of me. She rocked back and forth slowly before picking up her pace. I pulled her hair back to make her neck visible, as I placed kisses along her collar bone. For a while, all that could be heard was the water still running from the shower and our skin meshing together. It wasn’t long before she had me where I wanted to be either. I began to swell inside her, knowing what was about to happen.
"Shit Serenity, wait…we forgot the condom bae," I told her as I tried to slow her up so I could pull out. She wasn’t having it though.
"Shhh, it’s okay. The pill Chris, I—have—the—pill." Once she said it was okay, I definitely took that and ran with it. I stood up and carried her back up under the shower head as I began to thrust in and out of her, picking up my speed with her legs wrapped around my waist.
"You sure about this?" I asked as I continued to work on my first, while Serenity was working on her third or forth release.
"Y-y-yes Chris," she said breathlessly as we both came together. She then unwrapped her legs from around me as I pulled out. We just stood there, under the shower head breathing hard as hell.
"I love you," I told her as I kissed her forehead.
"I love you too," she said. I grinned as we finished washing off together before finally getting out of the shower. I swear, my fingers and toes were wrinkled like crazy, along with Serenity’s. I didn’t care though, with Leah coming soon…I knew the spontaneous things like this were going to have to cease for a while, until we both got the hang of things around here.
An hour later we pulled up to Short Pump Mall and met up with my mother and Big Pat. Of course she had an attitude because we were late but she forgot all about that as Serenity came into her view. She hugged her and kissed her cheek like she hadn’t seen her in forever. I mean, it’s been a good two months but my mom is just so dramatic.
"I still don’t understand why you took his yellow ass back, I’m glad you’re home though baby," my mom said playfully as she winked at me. I just waved her off as we began walking the outside mall. I let my mom and Serenity catch up at the nail salon real quick while Big Pat and I headed over to the jewelry store, we’d meet back up when they’re done to shop for Leah.
"Yo, thanks again for looking out man," I told Pat as we took our time getting to the jewelry store. It was dead out here at the mall, I mean it’s a Monday and it’s like 3:00pm, most people are still at work, that’s why I chose to come out around this time.
"I wasn’t born yesterday Boss man, you might have been…but I wasn’t. Nigga, you pay no type of attention to Serenity, she wears everything she’s feeling right on her face. She already made up in her mind what yall were going to do that night, just by the way she looked at you." I thought over his words, shaking my head.
"You right. Those damn eyes of hers tell you everything too. I haven’t been paying attention like I should’ve been. That stops today though," I told him as we finally reached the jewelry store.
"Hello, welcome to Jared’s…what can I do for you today?" A younger girl, couldn’t be more than 20 years old, said as I wandered into the store. I was surprised she didn’t attack me or ask for pictures, I know she knows who I am. I just let it go though, less stress for me today.
"Uh yeah, can you point me in the direction of your engagement rings please?" I asked.
"Of course. Wow, Chris Brown getting engaged? Who’s the lucky girl?" she asked as she led the way to a big glass case of rings. I legit became overwhelmed at how many choices there were, just like the first time I picked out Serenity’s ring.
"Yeah, her name’s Serenity," I said mindlessly. Big Pat quickly stepped on my new Breds, like I said something wrong. I mean, there’s no one in here but her and us.
"That’s a pretty name. Well, you see anything Ms. Serenity might like?" I looked over the rings, trying to find something completely different from the first ring I gave her. I still have that ring, I could easily just put it in the shop and get the missing diamonds replaced and the band reshaped but it held too many bad memories. She needs something new so we can start off fresh. Finally, a ring with a white silver band caught my attention. The diamond on it was huge and blinded me for a second when I looked at it.
"Yeah, let me see this one," I asked as I pointed to the ring that caught my attention.
"Great choice Mr. Brown. There’s something special about this ring, we can actually engrave a message in the band of this ring if you’d like."
"In the inside or directly on top of the band as well?"
"Either way you’d like it, we can do it."
"What you think Pat?" I asked as I handed him the ring. He inspected it like he was a professional jeweler or something before placing it back in my hand. "She’ll love it Boss man," he said.
"Yeah I think so too. Alright uhh—Crystal, I’ll take this one. Where do I right down the message I want engraved?" Her eyes grew big as she realized I knew her name, until she looked down and remembered she had a name tag on. She then took the ring back and handed me a document and pen to write down the message. I thought long and hard before finally deciding and writing it down. :
Mrs. Breezy, I love you…for a lifetime.
Big Pat looked down at the paper, nodding his head in approval. I gave Crystal the pen and paper back. She read over it, smiling.
"That’s sweet. Congratulations Mr. Brown, is there any specific time you’ll be needing the ring to be ready?" Crystal asked.
"Can we shoot for this Friday?"
"Yes sir, I’ll make note of that before I send it in."
"Alright, thanks for your help ma," I told her as we shook hands and I made my way out of the store.
"That was weird," Big Pat said as we walked towards the nail salon, hoping Mama and Ni-Ni were ready.
"What you talkin’ bout big man?" I asked him.
"She knew who you were and didn’t freak out."
"Maybe she don’t get all phased by celebrities bruh, don’t give it too much thought. I know you," I told him as we walked towards the direction of the nail salon.
"What’s this Friday though nigga?" he asked as he moved to the side of me, guarding me from the oncoming traffic of potential fans. Once I looked at them, they were all elderly and couldn’t help but laugh, Big Pat took his job to the extreme sometimes. I’ve never been mobbed or hurt by a fan though so, I couldn’t even be mad.
"Her birthday. She never talks about it because she doesn’t want the attention, or she probably thought I forgot, but I’ll keep it simple. Her engagement ring and a couple of her presents are just in order," I told him.
"You don’t think you moving too fast though, with the engagement ring and all?" I thought on his question, fidgeting with my snapback.
"Honestly, I don’t. I mean I thought about it, maybe she isn’t ready to jump back into that commitment. But, I want to at least give her the option, you feel me? The worst she can say is she isn’t ready but she already told me her feelings haven’t changed about me in general though. It can go either way man."
"I feel you. Man, Breezy you really lucked up with this one. Nigga, if you let her go again..you have got to be the biggest fool I’ve ever seen. I wish I had a girl like Ni-Ni, it’s hard to find shit as genuine as what y’all have. Wake the fuck up and realize that shit man, don’t take her for granted." I was caught off guard by his lecture but I felt where he was coming from. My nigga has had a lot of let downs with the ladies. Most of them were just around so they could get closer to me, and I hated that. I pray he’s blessed with what I’ve been blessed with sooner than later.
"I know Pat, I know. Trust me, I’m not letting her go. Like you said, this is the most genuine shit I’ve had in a long ass time. It took me a while to realize it but I’m glad I did. Don’t worry though, your shorty should be around soon man. I never thought I’d love again after Rih, but here I am blessed with Serenity. Just give it time big man," I said as I dapped him up. Little does he know, Big Pat has always been more of father figure for me than anything, it was just a plus that he became excellent security when needed.
"Finally, what took y’all so long?" I asked my mom and Serenity as Big Pat and I walked into the nail salon. They were just finishing up as Serenity was about to give the cashier her credit card. I quickly moved it out of the way and sat a crisp $100 dollar bill on the counter, knowing the total couldn’t be more than forty dollars but, oh well.
"Oh shutup, you know we got caught up with talking and what not," my mom said as she put an arm over Serenity’s shoulder as we began to walk out of the salon. We were now heading to a little boutique that sold baby clothing as my phone began to ring. I didn’t know the number so I declined it. Whoever it was instantly called back again.
"Christopher, step outside and shut that thing up," my mom said as she shooed me out of the boutique. I laughed as I did what I was told. I ended up answering it, not saying anything until the person on the other end did.
"Chris? It’s Tiffany," she said breathlessly into the phone. My eyes instantly got big, I had no idea what to expect from this call.
"Wassup Tiff? You good? Whose number is this?" I asked her.
"No, I’m not good you dickhead. It’s St. Mary’s number." I ignored her insult, she sounded like she was in pain.
"Wassup then ma? Talk to me."
"They had to induce my labor even earlier, talking about I have pre-clampsia or some shit. Don’t ask me what it is, because I don’t know. I just know it’s not good for me or the baby. Get your little yellow ass down here, now or I’m calling the adopting family on stand by." Before I could say anything she hung up. I replayed her words over then immediately raced back into the boutique.
"Aye we got to bounce, Leah’s on her way," I said as I threw everything my mom, Serenity, and Big Pat had in their hands on the counter to hurry up and pay for it. It seemed like she took forever to ring it up but finally the total came to $237.50, I instantly swiped my card. Big Pat picked up all the bags and I held Serenity’s and my mom’s hand out the door.
"Wait Chris, who is Leah?" my mom asked as we were making our way out of the mall and to the car. The mall was beginning to become more crowded than when we first got there, I was glad we were leaving.
"Your granddaughter Mama." As soon as I said that, her eyes lit up. We were in the car, racing to get on the highway to quickly get to St. Mary’s. On the way there, I just kept praying that everything was okay..with my daughter and Tiffany. Although we’ve had our ups and downs, and the chick is a lunatic, I appreciated her bringing my daughter into the world. I remembered how she wanted to abort our "mistake," not too long ago but I wouldn’t allow her to. Even though she was the main cause we were in all of this with her evil ass plan, if I hadn’t stepped outside of my relationship…none of this would even be happening right now. It doesn’t matter now though, it is happening and I honestly can’t wait to have Leah in my arms. Regardless of how Tiffany feels about the baby she carried, I know this child is a gift from God and deserves to be treated as such.
C H R I S:
Sevyn and Big Pat stayed at the art gallery while Serenity and I went to go have a late lunch at some fancy restaurant by the Eiffel Tower. The fact that she was actually here with me, by my side…still hadn’t registered yet. I just knew things were looking brighter for me, from here on out. I still couldn’t get over how much she changed in just one month. I could see she was still on her health kick, her waist was a bit smaller. Once she took her hair out of her bun to fix it, I noticed she cut it, it didn’t stop in the middle of her back anymore, but more so lingered around her shoulders. I noticed she was even wearing the diamond earrings I got her not too long ago, along with the matching Rolex to the one I was wearing.
"How did you possibly know, I’d be wearing mine? Pat told you I brought it with me or something?" I asked her as she looked up from her menu, smiling. Lord knows I’ve missed being able to make that possible for her, to make her smile.
"No, I swear…out of all the things he told me, that wasn’t one of them. I guess great minds just think alike?" she said as she winked at me, looking back down at her menu.
"Damn, well what else did he tell you?" I asked her, reading my menu over…not understanding any of these damn French words.
"I don’t think it matters. At least, not right now." She’s right.
"True. I know what does matter though…we just need to talk about everything right now. I mean, lay it all on the table so we can move on from it." She just shook her head in agreement..waiting for me to start.
"I guess I’ll start. Well uhhh…I just need you to know how happy I am to have you back in my life. Not that you actually left altogether but, that being "friends" shit did fuck with me, knowing damn well I wanted you back under the same roof with me. Also, just to get this out the way…although you thought I would, I didn’t forget you. I don’t know if you know, but…Rih is like, three doors down from me. I went over there like three days ago, to straighten things out. One thing led to another and before I knew it…she had me out my boxers. Before you jump off the deep end though, I was single three days ago…and I still refused to go any further with her, simply because I couldn’t forget you. I know that was a mouth full but I just didn’t want to start over with that on my mind."
"I mean, like you said…you’re single so you can do whatever you want. I do appreciate the fact that you were able to prove me wrong…somewhat." She started laughing and I joined in with her…until I played her words in my head again.
"Wait…the way you worded that sentence. Are you saying I’m still single?" I asked her.
"As of now, I guess so. We haven’t talked about actually getting back together yet."
"Well let’s talk about that then. There’s no doubt I want to. I know you may have some uncertainties but I promise you, all the non-factors from my past that kept creeping and messing shit up…are no longer around. The biggest problem was probably the drinking, and I’m proud to say I haven’t put my lips on a bottle for almost….two months now and I don’t plan on going backwards. Baby, I only see us going to the top from here, I just hope you can see it as well."
"I can. I don’t think you realize how much I’ve missed you. Macki threatened to break my Fortune CD in half if I played it again. It’s just…I needed to hear your voice. I couldn’t get up the courage to just call you and stop playing like I didn’t need you. I was trying to save face for everyone else. I mean, if everyone knew what happened that night…and they saw me back with you, you know how they would’ve responded. I no longer care about that though…I forgive you, I swear I do…and I trust that you won’t do it again. Chris, I love you and I want us to be together as much as you do. I don’t want to pick up where we left off, because where we left off..wasn’t that great honestly. I want to start over…rewrite this journey with a pencil instead of a pen…so the mistakes can be erased but still visible enough so we’re able to learn and grow from them. You down Maurice?" Everything she said, was everything I was feeling and more…I just didn’t know how to explain myself.
"I’m down, for life. From here on out, we start over…slates wiped clean. I love you too baby and I can guarantee that I will never fuck up again like that," I said as I leaned across the table, placing a kiss on her lips. This was everything I kept dreaming of after the day I messed up, and caused her to walk out. Now that she’s back, I’ll never let her go.
"Bonjour, je suis Shawn et je serai votre garçon aujourd’hui," the waiter said as he came over to where Serenity and I sat, placing the drinks we ordered when we checked in, at the table. I honestly didn’t understand a word he just said though, it was clear that Serenity did. She began rambling shit off in French and had a legit conversation with this man. Every now and then she’d look over at me, as she told the waiter something else in French. After the conversation was over, he picked up our menus before bowing and walking away.
"I didn’t even order anything," I told her as I sipped my lemonade.
"No worries, I ordered for you."
"Really? What you get me?"
"The baked chicken, with some sort of potato on the side…I’m not quite sure what it is."
"That’s fine. Shit, this is the first place I’ve found that’s even come close to American food. You don’t know how ready I am to go back home, ma. I rather have you in the kitchen, cooking up a bomb ass southern meal than to eat this gourmet stuff," I looked at her as she placed a piece of hair behind her ear, with her eyes fixed on the table. It was something she always did when she was nervous or had something on her mind.
"What you nervous for? No, better yet…what’s on your mind?" I asked her as I lift her head up with a single finger under her chin, so we were eye to eye.
"I don’t know. I guess it’s just…I’m worried, what if we can’t go back to the way we were..like none of this ever happened?" I understood what she was saying, I didn’t know how we were going to just up and act like we weren’t apart from each other for more than our hearts wanted to allow.
"Listen, as long as you love me…and you know that I love you…it’ll come with time ma. I’m not worried, and neither should you be. We’ll take it slow, even if that means I have to "court" you all over again." I smiled at her as the waiter returned and sat our food in front of us. I thanked him then began to eat my chicken and grew satisfied with each bite. How she knew I’d enjoy this, is beyond me but it’s the simple shit like this that reassure me, I’ve been blessed with the right one. Now that a nigga knows how it feels to no longer have his queen beside him, I’ll never let anyone or anything strip her of her crown again.
"I’ll stay down here, you two love birds go have fun," Big Pat said as we met up with him after our meal and approached the Eiffel Tower. I forgot this nigga was afraid of heights.
"Aight Pat, if I get mobbed up there by some fans, I’m blaming it on you," I joked with him. He just flicked me off as Serenity and I loaded the elevator to take us to the third floor of the Eiffel Tower. This probably would have been more romantic for her if it was actually dark outside and she could see the way this city lights up after the sun goes down, but the smile on her face told me this was just fine, so I stopped stressing.
"This your first time out in France?" I asked her, as I wrapped my arms around her waist and placed my chin in the crook of her neck, her sweet fragrance filling my nose.
"No, I went with my French class in 9th grade. But, this trip means so much more to me," she replied as she turned around, facing me.
"I’m glad. How did you set this up anyway? I’ve been meaning to ask. Big Pat has a hard time keeping his mouth shut, so I don’t know how the hell he managed to keep it a secret from me." She was about to answer me, until my phone started vibrating, scaring the shit out of me. I rolled my eyes as I pulled it out of my pocket, about to turn it off until I saw who was calling.
"I’m sorry ma, I got to take this though," I said as she stepped away from me, walking over to a separate part of the floor we were on. Shit, this is not what I needed while I was just getting back in her good graces.
"Yo, is everything alright?" I said, answering the call.
"Hey Chris, and I’m not really sure. I just got off the phone with my doctor, my lab results are back, and certain things were a little high risk for the baby and I, so they’re inducing my labor in the next two days."
"W-W-What? What the hell does that mean?" All of this shit caught me off guard. I’ve been texting Tiffany more often lately, just to keep up on the pregnancy since I was always too busy to make it to the doctor’s appointments and shit.
"It means, I’m having the baby in two days dumb ass. Look, you know I want nothing to do with this child so, there’s an adopting family on standby if you aren’t here in 24 hours after she’s born. So therefore, you have three whole days to get here, make it work." Before I could even comprehend the whole situation, she hung up. I’m not prepared for this. I knew it would come but she’s only 8 months, I thought I had a whole extra month to get things straight.
"Is everything okay?" Serenity asked as she walked back over to me. I probably wore all of my concern and worries on my face, but I didn’t know how to deal with any of this.
"I’m going to be a father…in two days, and I don’t have anything prepared. Oh, and if I’m not back in Virginia in the next 72 hours, she’ll be adopted to some family on standby." As the words rolled off of my tongue, I knew I was talking to Serenity, but I was also rationalizing and understanding this shit my damn self.
"Are you serious? You have nothing prepared? Where is she going to stay? Are you moving back to Virginia or California permanently? Does your mother know? Don’t you have things to finish out here in France, how the hell is this going to work? I mean I—" I quickly cuffed my hand over her mouth to shut her ass up. I couldn’t hear myself think.
"Look, I don’t have any answers to your questions. I wish I did, but I don’t. I’m going into this just as blind as you are. But, if this changes things about us being together…I understand completely." I slowly took my hand away from her mouth and she started shaking her head, a smile parting her lips.
"You need me now more than ever, I’m not going to turn my back on you or a child that didn’t ask to be born into such a dysfunctional family already. What I told you before, still stands and always has…even when we weren’t together, I’ll do all I can for you and your daughter. I’m not going anywhere," she said as she stepped towards me, placing her lips on mine. I swear at that second, I fell deeper in love with this woman. I didn’t think it was possible, but I did. A little of the stress from the situation no longer weighed me down, simply because I knew she had my back in this. I knew she’d support my decisions and help me along the way. I know it’s not going to be the easiest ride, but with my queen by my side now…I know all of this is possible.
C H R I S:
It seemed like the hallway got longer and longer as I took the trip down to her room. It wasn’t hard to find but I purposely kept avoiding the door. I paced the floor, back and fourth…trying to plan out what I would say…trying to think of what her possible responses would be. She knew I was here, she came here for a reason…why? I pray it’s not to fuck up my life anymore than it already is. I swear, I don’t need anymore stress added to what I’m already dealing with. Maybe I shouldn’t do this then, maybe I should just walk away and pretend like she no longer exists. If I could, I would. I’d march right back into my room and pretend like Mijo never even told me she was here.
"Ch-Ch-Chris, is that you?" someone asked as they opened the door, while I walked past to head back to my room. Shit. I knew it wasn’t Rih by her voice but I didn’t know who this chick at the door was either.
"It’s Mel…you don’t remember me? Damn, I know it’s been a minute but I’ve never thought of myself as the type to be easily forgotten," she said as I walked to where she stood, so we were face to face.
"Oh yeah Mel, I remember you now. How you been?" I could really care less but, to be polite…I asked anyway.
"I’m good, thanks for asking. What brings you here though?"
"Uhm, I need to talk to Rih…where she at?"
"She’s in the bathroom, you can wait for her in here. I’m about to run to the coffee shop downstairs, you want anything?"
"Nah ma, I’m good…thanks anyway," I told her as she let me into the room, then disappeared down the hall. I heard the showerhead going as I sat down in a chair at the breakfast bar, spinning the little bottle of Vodka around in my hand. My nerves almost got the best of me as I heard her end the shower, I thought about downing the whole bottle of Vodka to ease my nerves but, somehow…I was capable of refusing it. My palms got sweaty as I heard her humming "Umbrella," to herself…while I watched her bare silhouette, as she put lotion on her legs. I jerked my head in the opposite direction, I can’t do this. I quickly got up and headed for the door.
"Chris?" she said as she emerged from the bathroom, interrupting me from escaping. I slowly turned around, praying she was fully clothed. She wore a black pair of shorts with a small ass bra, her hair was tied up and she had on socks…like she was getting ready for bed at 1:00 pm.
"Oh, hey Rih. That girl….uhm….Mel, she let me in not too long ago," I said as I wiped my hands on my pants and pulled my hat further down over my eyes.
"Oh okay, it’s fine. Have a seat, what brings you by?" she asked as she motioned for me too sit down beside her on the couch.
"Nah, I’d rather stand but uh…look, we have to talk," I told her as I began pacing the floor again.
"Okay, about what?" she asked, like she was confused…how could she be confused, she knows exactly what we need to talk about.
"Well for starters…you’re here, the same time I’m here…three doors down from my room, how on Earth could this possibly be a coincidence?" She bit her lip as she thought of a lie, something she always did when she was either nervous or I knew damn well, she was about to part her lips to speak everything but the truth.
"Don’t even answer that. Look Rih, what is it that you want from me? You came all the way out here for something, what is it?"
"I-I-I honestly don’t know Chris. I don’t know what I want. I know I still love you, my heart tells me that on a daily basis with the way it aches and throbs from just the thought of you or simply hearing your name. I don’t know where I thought this would get me but I knew I at least had to try, being that you’re single now and all." She got up from the couch and started walking towards me, I backed up from her until she had backed me completely into a corner.
"Rih, you can’t keep doi—" before I could finish my sentence, she had her hands on my pants, unzipping them and tugging at my boxers. She got down on her knees and continued to pull at me.
"Robyn, stop! Get the fuck up!" I tried gently pulling her up by the arm, but she wouldn’t budge, she had finally managed to pull my member out of my boxers.
"Shhh, just go with this…for once, in your life Chris," she whispered while she looked up at me with those big, hazel eyes. She began to stroke me and I could no longer remember what I came here for. I looked down to see her jaw locked around me and it was like nothing I ever felt before, but I knew it was wrong, I knew I had to put a stop to it…I just didn’t know how. After she was done, she pulled me over to her bed, throwing me down and straddling me. She took off her shirt as she trailed kisses from the nape of my neck to my chest.
"I’ve missed you, so much" she whispered in my ear before biting my lobe. Suddenly, a knock at the door interrupted her from making any other moves and I was thankful because it gave me time to reprocess this shit and get myself together.
"I’m not going to answer it, Mel will get the hint and leave sooner or later," she said as she tried to push me back down on the bed from where I had sat up. I finally just snapped and picked her up off of me, setting her down on the bed.
"No, this is a mistake! I don’t know else to make you understand but I don’t love you like I use to! I’ll always be your friend and I’m always here for you but this can’t happen anymore, it just can’t. I’m sorry that I can’t love you the way you love me but I can guarantee you that there’s someone out there that does deserve the love you keep wasting on me," I told her as I put myself back together, straightening out my clothes. As I finished, I looked over at her and noticed tears threatened to escape her eyes, all because of me. I just walked over to her, pecking her forehead before making my way to the door. As I walked out of her room, I saw Mel sitting on the floor with a big ass grin on her face. She was about to say something but I waved her off, signaling I didn’t want to hear her slick ass comments.
"What the hell happened? You been over there for some shit," Mijo said as I walked back into my room. I just ignored him as I got my clothes and headed for the bathroom. I hopped in the shower and the steam from the water instantly calmed me down. I don’t know why I let these females get me caught up. I know I’m single and any other nigga in that position would have gladly taken what Rih was throwing. I didn’t want it though, at least not from her ass.
About twenty more minutes passed before Red was knocking at the door, claiming he had to shit. For his sake, I ended my shower when I possibly could have continued for another thirty minutes. I quickly put on my clothes, a simple pair of Levi’s with the Last Kings shirt my bro’ gave me for my birthday. I brushed my teeth and hair, putting on my Rolex and my chain. Once I was done, I finally stepped out of the bathroom.
"Move out my way nigga, taking all damn day," Red said as he pushed past me and ran into the bathroom, I couldn’t stop laughing.
"Yo Breezy, what you getting into today?" Big Pat asked as I sat down at the table, grabbing a banana from the basket.
"Not a damn thing, not trying to risk bumping back into her crazy ass." I winced as I repeated the scene back in my head. I came so close to doing something I knew I’d regret minutes after I did it.
"You trying to roll with me to get something to eat then? The girl I met at the club tryna’ meet us at the lil cafe down the street." he said as he kept his head down, focused on his phone.
"Nah, I’m goo-" As soon as I was about to decline, my stomach started gurgling and making all types of noises, I just knew Mijo had to hear it all the way in the back of the room. "Actually, I think I might have to step out with you for a minute dawg," I told him as I threw the rest of that nasty ass banana in the trash, it wasn’t satisfying my hunger anyway. I then got up to go get my phone off of the charger, and my wallet with all of my important shit in it.
"Where yall niggas going? I’m coming too!" Mijo said as he stepped all on the bed, trying to beat me to the door. I pulled him back by the hood on his sweater.
"Hell nah, stay here with Red punk ass and order room service," I wasn’t in the mood for him clowning around and asking questions, and especially disturbing Big Pat while he tried to put the mack down on his chick.
"Don’t mind if I do, nigga," he said as he flopped back down on the bed, picking up the hotel phone. I just shook my head as I followed Big Pat out of the room.
"Where Steve and Sev at?" I asked as we got into the truck with the driver Sevyn arranged us to have for the rest of our time out here.
"She said something about having other "business" to handle. She probably just trying to avoid Mijo ugly ass. And Steve still with his lil breezy from last night." I laughed as I thought about how hype Steve is going to be when he gets back to the hotel, he finally got some ass. I’m glad my niggas are enjoying themselves out here, that’s far from what I’m doing though, especially with Rih’s ass 3 doors down.
S E R E N I T Y: 2 days later
I called Big Pat and told him my plans. Once he got over the fact that he was hearing from me again, he directed me to some girl by the name of Sevyn. I knew about her but she was always so behind the scenes with everything, so we never really got the chance to meet or anything. She’s really nice though and she made this whole thing a lot easier than I thought it would be. I had a private jet waiting for me early this morning, that took me all the way to France with no problems. My room was set up once I got here not too long ago. Although Sevyn had taken care of everything, it still didn’t keep me from thinking I was making a mistake. However, after texting Big Pat back and forth, he helped me realize that I was doing what my heart told me was necessary and that for once, my brain wasn’t being the logical one.
After I stepped out of the shower the next morning, I pulled out my outfit for today’s activities. It’s rather hot in France but not as humid as it is back home. I decided on a pair of floral leggings, a simple v-neck and blazer, with a scarf. I threw on my black pumps and was finally satisfied when I looked in the mirror. I then pulled my hair into a messy bun on the top of my head and accentuated my eyes with a little mascara and eye shadow. I then colored my lips in with a soft pick shade.I finished off the look with the diamond earrings he gave me as a graduation gift with the “his and hers Rolex” watches that Wiz and Amber gave us a while back.
As I was checking myself out in the mirror, the hotel phone rang and I jumped over the bed to answer it before I missed the call.
"Hello?" I said as I sprayed on a little of my favorite perfume.
"Hey babygirl, you ready?" Big Pat asked.
"Yeah, I’m ready. Does he know?"
"Nah, he doesn’t have a clue…everyone helped keep it a secret. But look, we here at the art gallery, he whined like a big ass baby the whole way over here, he don’t want to do anything but sit in his damn room now."
"Thanks, I appreciate it Pat. Sevyn just text me though, my driver is outside. I’ll see you in a few," I told him before I hung up. I then grabbed my purse and my iPhone off of the charger before heading out of the door. I jumped on the elevator and as the doors began to close, I saw Mijo coming from a some girl’s room who had long, blonde and brown hair. I couldn’t be who I thought it was. I put my foot between the doors to keep them from closing. As I emerged back into the hallway, Mijo and I instantly laid eyes on each other…he looked like he had seen a ghost by the way he was looking back at me.
"Serenity? Wow, you look gorgeous, ma. What the hell you doing all the way out here though?" he asked as he ran to me, picking me up in his embrace. I just kept my eyes on the door he came out of.
"Thanks, and you can probably guess why I’m here, don’t tell your boy though. But uhm…was that who I think it is?" I asked as I pointed to her door.
"Yeah ma, but you have nothing to worry about. He and I both got her straight. Where you headed to?"
"Oh…okay. I’m headed to the art gallery." I looked down at my watch to see I was running late. "and I’m late, I’ll see you later Mijo," I said as I hugged him again then hopped back onto the empty elevator.
I practically ran to the car I was assigned and gave him the directions Sevyn gave me. Thankful for my participation in The National Honor Society for French and Spanish in high school, I was able to speak his language fluently and he easily understood.
About twenty minutes later we approached the building and I instantly got nervous as I text Pat, telling him I was here. I got out of the car and had to fight my way through the French paparazzi that obviously knew he was here. As I walked into the gallery and gave the clerk my name, she told me where the rest of my party was. I began to scan the gallery for them but I only heard their voices. I followed their voices until I managed to spot a head of blonde curls in a separate room. I took a deep breath and entered, the sound of my pumps hitting the marble floors, echoing through out the room. Sevyn and Big Pat turned around while he just sat on a bench, analyzing a rather sad and depressing painting.
"Welcome to Paris, France Serenity," Sevyn said as she walked towards me, hugging me. He just straightened up in his seat.
"That shit isn’t funny Sev," he said as he slowly and hesitantly turned around. Once our eyes met, his instantly got bigger from the surprise, while my eyes welled up with tears. It’s been a solid month since I’ve laid eyes on him in person.
"Me and Sevyn ain’t go through all of this trouble for yall to just look at each other," Big Pat said. He was right. I walked around the bench and stood in front of Chris, as he slowly stood up. He smiled at me, looking me over, as if he couldn’t believe I was actually here.
"Now, you not going to disappear into thin air, right before my eyes…are you?" he asked as he was about to touch my hand but hesitated. I shook my head as I walked closer to him, wiping the tears that were pooled under his eyes, I don’t even think he knew they were there.
"Serenity, I-I-I’m so glad you’re here ma. I’ve missed you so much. I know you thought I was going to forget about you once I got out here but I didn’t. I—"
"I love you too," I said as I cut off his rambling, placing a finger over his lips. He pushed a stray piece of hair from my bang, behind my ear. I instantly dropped my head as I felt myself blushing like this was my first time ever meeting him all over again. He then lifted my head up with a single finger under my chin. He bent his 6’3 stature down to my 5’7, so we were at the same eye level. He then smashed his lips against mine. At that moment, I felt complete. I felt all the pieces of the puzzle finally being found and put back in place. I felt my heart attaching itself back together as the missing piece had finally been added. I felt whole.
C H R I S:
My world was turned upside down before I saw her. As soon as I touched her, it flipped back to it’s upright position. My world wasn’t spinning before I saw her. It felt like I was living the same dreary ass day over and over again. As soon as I kissed her and held her in my arms, it started spinning again and the rain cloud above my head finally disappeared. I felt whole. I felt like the picture to this puzzle had finally become clear because I found the missing piece. I felt my heart beating again because without her, it stopped. I felt…complete.
C H R I S:
I’m probably considered the world’s biggest creep now that I had my neighbor keep surveillance on the condo. I asked him to call me if he ever saw a black Range pull up into the driveway. I went to desperate measures just to see her. I just needed closure, that’s it. I was already 10 minutes away when I got the call so I sped to the condo and closure is finally what I got…what we both got. I couldn’t be upset with the way things ended, she loves me and she knows I love her, we ended on good terms and that’s more than I expected or even had the balls to ask for.
"Uhh….Chris?" Damn, I forgot where I was for a minute.
"Oh yeah, my bad TT. I zoned out. What was your question?" The album dropped today, even with all the shit I’ve been going through, it was only motivation to finish the album by the release date.
"It’s cool, you look tired man. Like, you haven’t slept in days." Little does she know, I haven’t.
"My question was, what can we expect from you on this album, Fortune?" she continued as she looked over the album artwork.
"Well personally, I think this is my best piece of work so far. I put everything I had into this album. Everything I do is always for my fans but I think this is the first album I also made for myself. I made songs that I wouldn’t mind hearing over and over on the radio, songs that I wouldn’t mind dancing to in the club. You know? All the songs are just….genuine to the person I am today and had a lot of hard work put into them."
"Okay, I can definitely respect that. The singles you’ve already released are crazy so I know the album is a banger!"
"Thanks TT, you always show love when I come through mama, I appreciate that."
"You know I got you Chris. Now look, if you’re just tuning in, this is TT and I have my homie Chris Brown in the building here at iPower92,1. Now Chris, you know we have to talk about it so let’s just do it and get it over with, alright? You + Drake + the same club + a couple of bottles…what was that all about?" I figured that question was coming.
"Yeah, that….that was just about me…being dumb. I don’t know how else to explain that one because…there’s really no explanation for it. I mean, I didn’t throw the first bottle but I didn’t have to throw the second bottle either. As for Drake, I’ve heard his interviews and everything but I’ll just leave it at this….I’m grown, he’s grown..we could’ve handled our disagreements better than the way we did. I sincerely apologize to those that got caught up in it and got hurt, it shouldn’t have went down like that."
"I couldn’t agree with you more. I’ve seen the pictures of your body guard, he got hurt pretty badly in that. How is he?"
"Big Pat is doing just fine. He’s all healed and couldn’t be happier to come back to work." I looked over at Big Pat through the window as he shook his head in agreement.
"I’m glad to hear that. So Chris, are you in a relationship? I mean, I’ve seen you around with the cutest girl, she’s on your instagram and everything. Like, just keep it real with me right now homie." I knew this question was coming too.
"Nah, I’m single but…someone has my heart at the moment. And yes, that someone is the girl you’ve seen in the pictures."
"Well, why aren’t you guys together?"
"She’s going to school, my schedule is about to get crazy…she can probably find someone far better than I am anyway," that was only half of the truth but..I definitely meant what was said.
"I understand that. Man Chris, you’re always so humble and honest when you stop by and for that, we appreciate you baby. Now I know you probably have a million things to do but we thank you for coming through."
"Thanks for having me TT, and the rest of iPower92.1, I’ll be back soon…the next project is the tour so stay on standby for that. I love yall man, especially the fans. That’s why TT has about 50 copies of Fortune that are personally signed by me that she’s giving away later on today. I do this for yall man."
"That’s true ladies, I have 50..well 49 copies of Fortune signed by Breezy himself that I’ll be giving out in the next hour, stay tuned," TT said into her mic before she played Don’t Wake Me Up.
"You take care of yourself now, thanks again," she said as she hugged me. I dapped up and thanked all of the other people in the radio station then headed outside to where fans swarmed me. I signed a couple of copies of Fortune, gave out a couple of hugs, and took a couple of pictures before the alarm on my phone went off, indicating it was time to bounce and head to my private plane waiting for me in the Tapp. We finally made it to the car and headed South down the highway. I took out my phone and got on Instagram, looking at some of the pictures I had been tagged in recently. I found the picture TT and I took at the studio, I liked it then scrolled down to find some Fortune fan art, I liked those pictures too. I then scrolled down my newsfeed as I got another notification from someone tagging me in their pictures. I clicked it then realized it was from Serenity. I couldn’t help but smile as I read the caption under the picture of her holding her own copy of Fortune.
@serenitaaaay___: Just got the last one out here at Target in Louisiana. Hearing rave reviews about it already. I knew you could do it @chrisbrown. Forever #TeamBreezy (:
I liked the picture then commented: @chrisbrown: I appreciate you, so much ma.
I only commented on it because it wouldn’t be visible to anyone that she didn’t allow to follow her. The comment I left isn’t what I really wanted to say though. I wanted to tell her how much I’ve missed her, how bad I need her back in my arms, how much I still love her. It took everything in me to refrain from doing so. Space and time was all she asked for and I knew I had to give it to her. It’s only been three weeks since we ended things and it feels like a century.
"Yo Boss Man, Sevyn said she in the plane waiting on us, she not running late for once. We should be there in 10 minutes," Steve said as he eyed my reaction in the rear view mirror. I just shook my head. Sevyn is my new assistant and soon to be new artist under my label, whether she knows it or not. She did the background on a few tracks from the album and her voice is just too amazing to not be heard on her own single or something.
"Where we going again anyway, Breezy?" Big Pat asked.
"France, Paris and Milan. I’m performing at two of their night clubs, because I wasn’t able to make the birthday bash they wanted to throw for me, it’s my way of making up for it I guess." We soon pulled up to the parking lot where my private plane was waiting for us. The pilot helped Steve and Pat load our luggage as I boarded the plane. I grabbed a bottled water that sat beside a bucket with Champagne in it before sitting down beside Sevyn. She was so caught up in her emails that I don’t even think she realized we were here.
"Aye Sev, can you just relax for a few minutes. We have a long ass flight ahead of us, you can do your emails and shit some other time," I said as I closed her laptop and handed her another bottle of water.
"Chris, you won’t be saying that when you arrive to Paris and the shit for your performance isn’t ready, let me do my job please," she said as we all settled down in our seats, buckling up and preparing for takeoff.
"Why you so salty? Damn, it’s not even 5:00 yet and you stressin’. It’s because of Mijo, huh?" she probably didn’t think I figured out that those two had something going on. It was all so obvious though, if they didn’t want anyone to know…they had to do a better job of concealing that shit.
"Mijo? What? No, it’s the fact that all these damn wedding planners keep calling and emailing me when I told them I no longer needed their services. I wish I did but…I don’t, do I?" she said as she took off her sunglasses and looked at me, like she was disappointed in me.
"Nah, you don’t. At least, not right now. And, don’t look at me like that either. I’m working on this shit, I promise you…I really am."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah…ayo’ Breezy, you think you gon’ need us a lot out there though? Shit, I’m trying to find me a freak from France!" Big Pat said as he raided the mini-fridge, finally finding a piece of cake he was satisfied with.
"You a fool nigga, but I mean…you remember how crazy it was last time. I’ll make sure I set time aside so you can find you a freaky French chick."
"Yall are disgusting," Sevyn said as she got up and went to the other side of the plane, I guess so she could concentrate on her "assistant/manager" duties.
"My nigga! I’m pretty sure you gon’ get all the hoes out there though, ain’t gon be none left for me and Steve," Pat continued as he bit into his cake.
"Nah, that’s one thing you don’t have to worry about pimp," I reassured him.
"Why not, I thought you and Ni-Ni were…over?"
"We are but, I just don’t have the desire to be with anyone else. Is that cool with you, nigga?"
"But you had the desire to be with someone else while you were with her? You one backwards ass nigga Breezy."
"Yeah, foreal man. I miss Ni-Ni being around. Why’d you have to go and fuck that up?" Steve said as he raided the mini-fridge for a snack as well. These niggas were beginning to piss me off.
"Look, yall not about to question me on shit that doesn’t concern yall, on this 15 hour flight. Steve, continue snacking with yo’ hungry ass and Pat, shut the hell up or take a damn nap, just stop fucking with me." They probably continued to say some slick shit but I tuned them out with my music and Beats by Dre headphones. To occupy my time, I decided I’d shoot Serenity a text. We’ve been texting on and off lately, just about simple shit…like, how our day has been, the bullshit we encountered during the day or what we ate for dinner…I didn’t care what we were talking about, just as long as we were keeping an open line of communication…as friends.
Me (5:45): Wassup Ni-Ni
Ni-Ni (5:55): Hey Christopher
Me (5:57): What you up to?
Ni-Ni(6:01): I’m just chilling, listening to Fortune. You out did yourself homie.
Me(6:04): I appreciate it ma. Got a favorite song yet?
Ni-Ni(6:10): Wait For You, it’s been on repeat since I got the deluxe edition
Me(6:12): That’s a coincidence
Ni-Ni(6:14): How so?
Me(6:16): It was inspired by you.
Ni-Ni(6:20): Really? Macki tried to tell me it was but, I didn’t believe her. Any other songs about me?
Me(6:22): A couple of em but, I’ll let you figure that out for yourself
Ni-Ni(6:25): Challenge accepted. What are you up to tho Brown?
Me(6:27): On the plane, heading to Paris for the week.
Ni-Ni(6:30): Ooooh, that sounds fun
Me(6:32): Ha, hardly
Ni-Ni(6:34): how come?
Me(6:35): You’re not going to be with me.
Ni-Ni(6:38): You’ll find some exotic chick out there and forget all about me lol. I’ll ttyl though, heading out with Macki and my sister.
That was just like her to say some shit like that before ending the conversation, so I really couldn’t respond. It bothered me that she thought a week in France could make me forget about her that quickly. Nah, it’ll probably make me think about her even more. Which sucks, because I’m supposedly going out there to have fun, I’m performing at two night clubs…two separate nights, in two different cities. This is almost every celebrity’s dream…but right now, it’s not my dream. I’d rather be back at the condo, hugged up with Serenity…with a wedding band secured tightly around my finger.
S E R E N I T Y:
Chris always knows how to distract me when I need to stay focused on a certain task at hand, which is getting him to the club without letting him know it’s for his surprise birthday party. He was suspicious about everything I did. He wanted to know why I was getting so dressed up to just go to a “graduation party,” and after the scene in the shower, it was getting harder and harder to focus on making my lies believable.
“Seriously though, all that make up is not necessary for a graduation party Ni-Ni. I wish you’d hurry up, I’m starving like Marvin out here man,” he said from the bedroom. I just ignored him and continued to put mascara on. I then got a text from Nima saying everything and everyone was in place and waiting on our arrival. I quickly threw on some lip gloss then made my way out of the bathroom.
“You do realize you’re not leaving my side tonight, right?” Chris said as I looked over myself in the full length mirror. I didn’t look half bad, I just had on a simple pair of jeans and shirt with my pumps..I didn’t go all out.
“What? I’m not even that dressed up,” I told him as I grabbed my purse and keys off of the dresser.
“You don’t have to be, you could go to the club in sweats and I’m pretty sure every nigga in there would still try to get with you, and I’m not having that,” he said as he followed me out to the car. I just shook my head as I started the engine and text Nima to tell her we were on our way.
“Wouldn’t it just be easier to compliment me instead of all of that? You already know I’m not paying these other niggas any attention so they should be the last of your worries,” I told him as I pulled out into traffic. I couldn’t believe he was acting like this.
“Yeah, I hear you ma…I hear you. Alicia ain’t tell me nothing about this graduation party the few times I saw her around though.”
“Well Chris, maybe she wanted to keep it a surprise. I didn’t know until today, at the damn ceremony.”
“Oh. Well it’s a Friday night…everybody and their mama usually be outside the club..in line, waiting to get in. There’s no one out here and I know her VIP isn’t that deep,” he said as we pulled up to club Aurora. I noticed the balloons outside in Chris’ favorite colors, blue and black that adorned the arch of the door. He was still too stuck on stupid to see this was actually for him.
“Chris, just get out of the damn car..please and thank you,” I said as I grabbed my purse and made my way to the front door. While Chris took his sweet ass time getting out the car, I text Nima to let her know we were here, hoping it was enough time to get everyone in place. Chris finally made his way over to me and we made our way inside the club.
“What the fuck? Why is it so dark in here?” he said loudly.
“SURPRISE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!” a crowd full of people said once the lights were turned back on. I looked up at Chris’ face and saw two different reactions. One reaction was happy, and couldn’t wait to mingle with his friends and family. The other reaction was cold…like he hated every minute of this. He immediately left my side and went to talk to Mijo and Bow, leaving me like I didn’t exist.
“What’s up baby girl? Long time no see!” A very pregnant Amber Rose said as she pulled me into a hug. I shook off my thoughts about Chris and focused on mingling with my new friends as well.
“Hi Amber! I know, I know. I’ve missed you! How are you?” I asked her as we walked to the bar and sat down.
“I’m great and I’ve missed you as well. What’s up with your boy though? Are you guys okay?” I knew she was referring to Chris.
“Yeah girl, everything’s cool. Nothing to be worried about.” She just shook her head and looked down at my hand that was resting on my lap.
“You still have your ring so, I believe you…for now that is mama, You have my number though.” as soon as she got up, Nima, Macki, and Ashley raced towards me and trapped me in their hugs.
“Hey y’all! Nima, how on Earth did you get everyone here in VA for his birthday party? You rented out the whole club and everything, you even decorated it. How did you get all of this done in such a short amount of time?” I said as I looked around the club, taking note of all the personalized decorations of Chris.
“Girl, it was stressful but with Macki’s and Ashley’s help..it got done. Where yellow bone baby at though? I got an ice cream cake so we might want to sing happy-damn-birthday soon before it melts and shit,” she said.
“True. You guys go gather everyone around and I’ll go get him,” I told my sister and friends. They agreed and parted ways to do what I suggested. I then got up from the bar and made my way over to Chris, who was laughing and goofing off with Mijo, Bow, Wiz, and Tyga.
“Excuse me fellas,” I said as I interrupted whatever they were laughing over. “Can I steal my fiance` from you all for a quick second?”
“What up Ni-Ni? Go’on head girl, he was startin’ to a annoy a nigga anyway,” Tyga said jokingly while pushing Chris towards me.
“You good now? That look you gave me earlier has me thinking other wise,” I told him as we walked over to the stage together.
“Yeah, I’m good shawty. Thought I told you I didn’t want any parties though?” he said while biting his lip. He obviously wasn’t over what it was that had him upset.
“Chris, it’s not that big of a deal. You’ve done so much for me and I just wanted to do a little something for you…what’s the problem?”
“Nothing man, nothing.”
“Alright, Chris and Ni-Ni..yall come on up here,” Nima said through the mic as she waited for us on stage. Chris walked ahead of me, instead of with me. I wanted to snatch him back by the collar of his jacket but to save face in front of everyone…I let it go. It wasn’t long before the cake was brought out and everyone in the crowd starting singing happy birthday to Chris. With all of me, I hoped that bought a smile to his face.
“Thanks everyone. I love yall man…fo’real, that comes from the heart. Without yall, without my fiance`…I don’t know where I would be. So uh, it’s my 22nd birthday…let’s turn up!” he said as he motioned for me to come on stage and help him cut the first piece of his cake. The caterers then took over the job and I found myself in the middle of the crowd, dancing with Chris like he just wasn’t upset with me minutes ago.
“Yo Chris, your baby mama’s at the door,” Big Pat said as he interrupted our dance. Chris’ facial expression quickly went from smiling to scowling in seconds. I followed Chris and Big Pat back to the front door to see a swollen Tiffany, about 6 months pregnant..pacing back and forth.
“Tiff, I don’t think you were invited…the fuck you want?” Chris said as he closed the door behind us, so no one inside would hear the fiasco outside.
“I’m the mother of your child Chris, why wasn’t I invited? I called and text you, wishing you a Happy Birthday and I got no response. We haven’t talked in three months because you’ve been busy with lil miss thang over here. Nigga, I’m having your child, not her! And it’s a girl, just in case you were wondering,” she said as she threw the ultrasound CD at Chris then walked off down the street somewhere. I picked up the CD and put it in Chris’ hand. He was expressionless as he just shoved it down his pocket.
“I told you we were going to get your ass!” Someone yelled from a black truck the same time bullets sprayed the club, popping the balloons above our heads, barely missing us. Chris immediately opened the door to the club, pushing me down to the ground so he could cover me with his body. Big Pat unexpectedly pulled out his own gun and shot at the black truck that sped down the road. The inside of the club was a complete mess. No one was hurt but the damage those tiny bullet holes made was unbelievable, we were going to pay out the ass to fix all of this.
“Whoa, y’all good man?” Steve said as he raced towards us, his hand gripped on the back of his belt, where I knew he kept his gun.
“Fuck no, get everyone up out of here man. I’m going home bruh,” Chris said as he pulled me off of the ground and held me all the way to the car. He fished threw my purse to get the keys and his unstable hands finally found the ignition and started the car. I didn’t ask questions on the way home, I was too busy answering calls and text messages, making sure certain people got home and back to their hotel rooms safely. Thanks to Chris’ speeding, we got home relatively quickly. He came on my side of the car and opened the door, pulling me out and all the way into the house. When he let go of me, I had his finger prints around my wrist that I was sure would turn into a bruise by tomorrow morning.
“Fuck! This is why I told you I didn’t want a damn party!” he said as he threw the car keys across the table.
“What? That doesn’t even make sense. I know you’re not trying to blame this on me!” I snapped back at him.
“Yes! Nigga, it is your fault! I blame you! If you did as I asked, none of this would have ever even happened!”
“Chris, what-the-fuck-ever. I’m so over you tonight, go to sleep..on the couch I mean, and get back at me with all this shit in the morning,” I said as I stomped into the bedroom. He followed me. He grabbed me, aggressively, and pushed me up against the wall. I smelled the alcohol on his breath. He wasn’t himself, I saw a whole new person in his eyes. I was scared.
“Nigga let go of me! You’re hurting me Chris!” I said as tears started to sting my eyes.
“Nah, fuck that! These niggas have been calling my phone, texting me all damn week…telling me they were lurking and just waiting for me to slip up so they could attack. I told you I didn’t want a party because I knew if they got wind of it, they’d come through and fuck that shit up! Oh, and what happened? That’s exactly what the fuck they did!” He said as he pushed me away from him, I tripped and fell into the dresser, hitting my back against the corner of it. He paced the floor, running his hands through his curls. I was scared to move, scared to even breathe because I didn’t want to do anything that triggered him to do something I knew he was capable of.
“I saw what my life would have been like if one of those bullets would have hit you. I saw a life I didn’t want. I saw a life I refused to have…a life I was trying my best to avoid but…you just made it so easy for them,” he said as he walked towards me. I tensed up at his touch, I no longer knew what to expect.
“Ni-Ni, I’m sorry—” the sound of his phone vibrating cut him off. He went to answer it, putting it on speaker phone..I thought he knew who it was.
“Yeah nigga, you thought we were playing. I hope I made myself clear tonight. You got one more time to slip up and next time I won’t be so trigger happy, I’ll actually hit my target nigga,” I recognized that voice from the black truck.
“See, this shit is not a game Serenity!”
“Well, do you know who it is threatening you? I mean, we could always go to the police,” I said uneasily as I walked towards him.
“The police? Are you serious? Get the fuck out of here with that. The police don’t give a shit about a nigga like me. I’ll handle this shit on my own.” he said, pushing me again.
“Look Chris, there isn’t going to be too many times of you putting your hands on me like this,” I told him as I made my way to the kitchen to get ice for my bruises. I looked back and saw he had opened up a bottle of Ciroc, taking a swig of it before looking up at me. I rolled my eyes at him and fished through the freezer for an ice pack. I heard his foot steps behind me, I slowly turned around from the refrigerator. He looked me dead in the eye while taking another drink from his bottle.
“Give me this, you’ve had enough for one night,” I said as I took the bottle from him and walked over to the sink. He caught my hand and tried to take it from me but I held a good grip on it, I refused to let it go.
“I’m a grown ass man, I’ll drink what the fuck I want!” he said as he violently tried pulling the bottle out of my hand. I dropped the ice pack so I could put up a better fight with both hands. In a split second, the bottle flew out of my hand, hitting the floor and spilling everywhere. In that same second, I watched his hand as it seem to approach my face in slow motion…as he slapped me across my face. Tears instantly stung my eyes as the side of my face stung from his hand. I looked at him, as he stared back at me…like he didn’t realize what he just did. I marched into the bedroom, holding the side of my face as I packed a bag. I threw any and everything in that damn bag, I probably even packed some of his shit. I then grabbed my phone, my purse, and my keys. I walked back into the kitchen to find him in the same place I left him.
“Fuck you,” I said as I snatched my ring off of my finger and threw it at him. He still didn’t move, he just stood there as I walked towards the door. I took one last look at him before shaking my head and leaving the house…my house, our house. I got in my car and the tears fell instantly. I had flashbacks of the incident…how he was so cold and expressionless. Like, he wasn’t even here…physically, he was here but mentally…he was somewhere else. How did this happen? Why did this happen? What else is going to happen? All the questions I had absolutely no answer to.
S E R E N I T Y:
I decided it was best we just head back to the hotel after Chris broke down like that. I went back in the studio and confronted the concerned faces of Big Sean, Wiz Khalifa, and Amber Rose, telling them Chris didn’t feel well so it was best for us to go. They all looked like they didn’t believe a word that came out of my mouth but Amber understood completely. She and I really hit it off while Chris was in the booth, putting in work. I felt bad for thinking the horrible things I thought about her thanks to the way the media portrays her but, she was really sweet and had great advice. She even gave me her number and took mine down so we could hang out some time or if I ever needed someone to talk to. I definitely didn’t expect her, or Big Sean and Wiz to be so nice to me. It’s probably only because of who I am to Chris, I’m pretty sure regular fans don’t get treated like this.
After a silent car ride, we were back at the hotel. Chris didn’t speak in the elevator and he didn’t speak once we were in our room. He locked himself in the bathroom for a good 20 minutes while I changed out of my dress, into something more comfortable. I didn’t want to annoy him with questions because I already knew who had caused the trouble, Tiffany…I just don’t know what she did yet. I decided to wait until Chris was ready to talk about it. After a while, whenever something is bugging him, it drives him crazy if he doesn’t let it out so, I know he’ll talk sooner or later.
As I was about to get comfortable on the couch and watch a movie, I heard a knock at the door. Chris didn’t open up the bathroom door to get it so I eased my way up, causing pain to my leg and limped to the door.
"Oh, hello Serenity. Is Chris here?" I couldn’t believe who was at the door. How did she even find our room, better yet…the hotel we’re at.
"Hi, Rihanna…yeah, he’s here. Can I help you with something?" I asked, trying to keep the fake ass smile glued on my lips, knowing damn well I wanted to slam the door in her face.
"Oh not really, just wanted to stop by and see what was up, I actually have nothing planned for today..for once, needed to get out of my hotel," she said as she eased past me, into the living room, sitting down on the sofa. Chris finally came out of the bathroom, changed in basketball shorts and a t-shirt, and looked directly at her, rubbing his temple.
"What the fuck?!" he mumbled to himself, "Yo, Rih…what you doing here man? How did you even find me?" he said louder for her to hear.
"That’s quite a welcome Mr. Brown…but seriously, I have "people," just like you have "people," you know the management team can track anyone down," she replied.
"Well that still doesn’t answer my first question…why are you here?" Rihanna got up, walked past me, and stood directly in front of him.
"I don’t know…I was bored in my hotel…the listening party isn’t until later and I actually have nothing better to do. I was hoping we can hang out?" She took it a step farther and wrapped her arms around his neck, Chris immediately moved out of her grasp.
"Nah man, I need you to bounce. I’ve had a rough day so far and I’d really just like to chill and enjoy the company of my fiance, if that’s not too much to ask for," he told her.
"Fiance? Since when? You said today at the beach she was just your girl…didn’t you? Chris, you can’t be serious. I mean, really…look at her, then look at me…really?" Is she talking about me? I know this hoe is not talking about me?!
"Now wait just a minute bitch, yes…he’s very serious, here’s the ring to prove it," I said as I flashed her my ring, limping towards her. "What I need you to do is —" before I could finish my sentence, Chris grabbed my arm, telling me to calm down and have a seat. I did as I was told, but if he know’s like I know…he’ll handle this shit before I do.
"See now, you crossed the line. Yes, she’s my fiance and the only one between you and Kae that has gotten ring, correct? Now, build a bridge and get the fuck over it and go back to where you came from," Chris said as he went to the door and opened it for her, motioning for her to leave. She rolled her eyes at me before walking over to Chris, mushing his face, then leaving.
"Man Ni-Ni, I apologize ma. I’m sorry you have to deal with bullshit like that," Chris said as he pulled me down on the sofa with him. I just curled up next to him and lay my head on his chest.
"That’s the least of my worries Brown. You ready to talk?" I asked him. He became stiff but shook his head in agreement. He turned towards me so we were eye to eye and took a deep breath.
"You know that moment I fucked up with Tiffany right?" he said, visibly hurting to revisit those thoughts again. I just shook my head yes so he could continue.
"Well, apparenlty she’s never been able to let me go. Even though she was with Kevin…she was still mentally with me. She used Grandma Susie’s death to her advantage..knowing I was just as vulnerable as she had been. She knew my dumb ass would fall in her trap. So before I got there..she told me she poked a tiny ass hole in the condom..thinking that if she was having my child..I’d get back with her. I think our breakup mentally damaged her..but the crazy thing is, she broke up with me. I mean..I don’t know how else to handle this," he dropped his head in his hands. My initial instinct was to grab his phone and let Tiffany know what I’ve been yearning to tell her for a while now but I couldn’t blame this all on her. Chris knew what he was doing, the whole time he was doing it but…I’m over it now…we’re over it. I just wish everyone else would let us move on.
"You want full custody of the baby?" I asked him, without thinking about the question before it came out of my mouth.
"If that means losing you then—-"
"That’s not what I said nor what I asked Chris. Do you want full custody of the baby or did you just say that…in the heat of the moment?"
"I want full custody of my child…I no longer trust Tiffany to be in charge of another life when she’s barely in charge of her own. I just don’t know how it’s going to work out. I have 6 months left to figure it out."
"You don’t have to do this alone. I’m you’re fiance now, right? That means whatever we go through…we go through it together, I’ll always be here for you Chris…and if that means helping you raise this child then…so be it." I couldn’t believe what I was saying but I just knew I meant it. I never thought I’d be this close to having a family at almost 19 but…I love Chris and I’m not leaving his side for wanting to do right by his child.
"You are an amazing woman, you know that?" Chris said as he pulled me into his arms, laying back on the sofa.
"I know, I know, no need to tell me," I joked with him. He kissed my cheek then turned me around so we were eye to eye.
"You still have 5 days left on your spring break…what do you say we hop on a plane tonight or tomorrow morning and head to my home out in Cali, get away from this crazy ass city," he said.
"I don’t know, if I go to Cali…I might not want to come back," I told him.
"Well you have to come back, at least to finish school. Then, if you really do love Cali that much…I don’t mind officially moving back out there. It’ll be a lot easier on me with recording this album and everything too."
"I’ll let you know when that time comes. After I graduate…in 3 months, you think I can go back home…to Louisiana and visit my family?"
"Man, once you graduate ma…all you’ll be doing is hopping on the jet and flying wherever you want to go, whenever you want. We’ll be flying to Louisiana, Virginia, Cali, and wherever I’m touring at, all after you graduate. I specifically put off the release of the album until June 15th, so I had absolutely no where to be but your graduation. You ready for this life style Ni-Ni?"
"Not really…what other choice do I have though? I love you and this is the life you lead so…I’ll get use too it sooner or later, don’t worry about me." The thought of having a private jet, living in California, and even having a step son or daughter before I’m 19 scares the hell out of me.
C H R I S B R O W N:
“Ni-Ni, will you wake your sleeping beauty ass up please?” I said loudly to Serenity as I parked the car in front of my California home. We spent last night packing and decided to leave early this morning, around 8 am. I was so happy to be here. It just felt like I had clean slate at trying to give Serenity the Spring Break vacation I’ve been trying to give her all along, but failing to do so. Yesterday was quite eventful and far from what should be happening on a vacation. Hopefully in Cali, she can just lay on the beach, party at the club with me, and just enjoy these next few days.
“Stop yelling Brown, I’m up,” she said as she rubbed her eyes and got out of the car. I was glad to see her walking freely without the crutches. The only reason she ever really needed them was because it hurt to bend her leg and walk where her stitches were..either way, seeing her without them made me happy.
"Man don’t worry about the bags, come on in girl," I said as I stopped her from opening the trunk.
"Who’s going to get them out of the car then?" she asked sleepily, still not fully awake.
"Big Pat is," once I said his name, her eyes lit up and he opened up the door right on cue, slowly walking out. I was happy to see Big Pat, even happier to hear from him when he called me last night, telling me he had got stitched up, stayed in the hospital for the day and then took his ass back to where he wanted to be, my home in Cali even though his family told him not to.
“Ni-Ni! What’s good ma?!” he said as he picked Serenity up in a bear hug. Once he let her back down on her feet, she assessed the damage. then brought his head down to her level so she could seal his stitches with kisses. I cleared my throat and they both rolled their eyes, I didn’t give a fuck though.
"Don’t you ever play me like that Breezy, come here boy!" he said as he picked me up in that same gay ass bear hug he gave Serenity.
"Man, you better go on somewhere ‘for you bust a stitch," I joked as he put me down. He just laughed while flicking me off, putting an arm around Serenity’s shoulder than walking her in the house.
"Why the hell the house so dark Pat?" I asked as I flicked on the light.
"SURPRISE! CONGRATULATIONS CHRIS AND NI-NI!" I couldn’t believe my eyes. I also told Big Pat that Serenity and I got engaged on the phone last night, how the hell he threw a welcome home/congratulations party in a couple of hours is beyond me.
"Breezy! Congratulations y’all, from me and my little man King," Mike said as he dapped me up. Chyna hugged me and gave me her congratulations but it didn’t take my attention off of my nephew. I basically had to beg Mike to let me hold King, it was my first time seeing him since he was born so I knew he was going to sit his over protective ass down somewhere and let me have this moment.
"Congratulations Chris and Serenity, Kae couldn’t make it but she told me to send her love along with mine," Seiko said as she pulled Serenity in a hug first, then me. I looked over at Big Pat, wondering why he invited Kae and her lil sidekick. He just shook his head, like he didn’t have a clue as to why she was even here.
"Prince of VA! Who would have thought my nigga would be engaged, congratulations homie and the same to you Ms. Serenity," Trigga said as he stepped forward, dapping me up and hugging Serenity.
"Now just have a daughter so Shai here can have someone I don’t mind her playing with and we’ll be straight. Ha, I’m just playing dog. Congratulations though Breezy, and nice finally meeting you Serenity," Bow said as he shook hands with us, with the arm free of Shai.
"Wow, thanks everyone. Yall sure do know how to make a nigga feel welcomed," I told them all. They burst into laughter and began to mingle amongst themselves while I handed King back over to Mike and sat down beside Serenity. She was smiling from ear to ear as she socialized with everyone, showing off that big ass rock on her finger. I decided to let her do her thing while I tried to figure out what Seiko was doing here.
"Yo Pat, let me holla at you for a second," I said while motioning for him to lean in a little further so the whole party didn’t hear my conversation.
"Dawg, what the hell was Seiko doing here..talking about Kae couldn’t make it?" I asked him.
"I have no idea big homie, I don’t even know how they found out about it. Not unless they saw it on my twitter..but all I said was you were coming home today..I said nothing about a party. My tweets are protected anyway and she doesn’t follow me..I don’t know how it happened man. I just couldn’t kick her out though." I listened to him and tried to make sense of the situation as best as I could before I was interrupted by Seiko herself.
"Hey Chris, congratulations again…really, I’m so happy for you," she said as she hugged me again. I just grinned at her, studying her features to see if her expressions or body language gave way to anything.
"Thanks Seiko, where Kae at?" I asked her.
"She’s here, in Cali…she just had some modeling stuff and couldn’t make it."
"Word, well thanks for coming by and showing love ma," I said as I hugged her, trying to act like nothing was wrong with this picture. After she let me go, I headed back over to Ni-Ni, who has playing with Bow’s daughter, Shai..with Bow no where in sight.
"You’re a natural," I told her, admiring the she held Shai. The smile she had on her face was priceless, for once..I think Serenity is truly happy.
"Thanks. You remember Kendall and Kylie, right? Those two hoodlums were my practice, I know what I’m doing now," she told me.
"I see ma. You think you’ll ever want one of your own?" I asked her.
"Of course. As soon as I finish college, med school, and start my own practice then, sure. Until then, your son or daughter shall be quite enough." I shook my head, hearing where she was coming from. I really do wish Serenity was pregnant with my child instead of Tiffany but..that’s not the way things work out. However, if I have to wait 10 years for Serenity to be ready to have my child, well..that’s how long I’ll wait then.
C H R I S B R O W N:
The doctor sent Serenity and I home with stitches in her leg and stitches in my chin. They want to keep Big Pat for a couple of days just to observe him. The rest of the night in the hotel room was even more quiet than the ride from the hospital. With the help of her crutches, she simply walked through the door, took a shower, and headed to the bedroom. Before I realized it, she moved a pillow from my side of the bed and put it next to me on the couch, leaving me to call for a blanket from room service.
”Serenity, can you just talk to me..please, ma? You can yell at me, curse me the hell out, or something…I just need to hear your voice I guess,” I said as I sat down next to her on the bed. She just rolled her eyes at me and ran her hand through her hair, something she always did when she’s irritated or pissed of with me.
"Chris…I don’t have anything to say to you. Now, thanks to the pain medicine I’m drugged up on, I’d appreciate it if you made your way back to the couch so I can go to sleep," she said while sliding to the top of the bed, laying down on her back. I wasn’t taking "no" for an answer, if things go my way…she’ll be doing more than talking, more like screaming my name to the top of her lungs.
I climbed to the top of the bed where she was and held her in my arms while playing with her hair and to my surprise, she didn’t protest it. I went a step further and kissed her neck…which soon led to sucking and she didn’t protest that either. It was clear that she was more than ready for what I was about to give her next. I moved down to the foot of the bed, careful not to disturb her stitched up leg that was elevated on a pillow. I then took my hand and tugged at her shorts, her eyes giving me permission to go even further. Within seconds, her shorts were off and her panties were by her ankles. The only thought that lingered in my head, was to make sure I made love to her better and more meaningful than Delano did and I did to Tiffany. The fact that she even let me get this far, surprised me and I wasn’t going to take advantage of her.
After teasing her by kissing the inside of her thigh, I finally turned up full throttle and kissed her center. The arch she quickly threw in her back told me no matter what Delano did, he didn’t make her feel like this. She dug her left hand into the sheets while her right hand tugged at my curls, pushing me deeper. About what seemed like 10 minutes later, I figured she had enough by the way her legs grew weak and limp, already paralyzed. I took that as my shot to take the next step. I reached into my pocket where I’ve made a habit of keeping protection since I was 16 and strapped it on. Instead of continuing, I first kissed her lips and thought I’d ask for permission to go further.
"We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to ma, I don’t mind waiting for you" I whispered in her ear.
"Shh, it’s okay," she said as she held a finger to my lips. I kissed her once again as she gasped against my lips once I was in. Not wanting to hurt her, I took it slow. That is, until she begged me to work faster and at that point, I was in my zone. It was my first time making love to her, and I planned on making it something she’d never forget.
The next morning she woke up quite stiff, even if she didn’t want to let me know it…but in a better mood altogether. I’ll be honest, in the past…my way of getting out of shit I’ve brought on myself in my other relationships, was to fuck the shit out of her until she forgot what she was even angry about. That’s not the case this time though, I plan to get her to sit down and talk with me about what made her so upset and how we can work on it.
"Aye babe, I know you can’t get in the water but grab a nice dress or something and we’ll go walk the beach while it’s not so crowded," I yelled in the bathroom so she could hear me. Less than 10 seconds later she walked out in a long, strapless, light blue dress with her hair flowing past her bare shoulders and her make up matching perfectly.
"When will you realize I’m always 10 steps ahead of you Maurice?" she said as she limped into the kitchen and found herself a banana.
"Is that right? From the looks of last night, I think I was clearly 20 steps ahead of you Elizabeth," I said before smacking her ass then running to the bathroom. I went ahead and text Nima to tell her to meet us at the beach since she ask to come and she text me back assuring me she’d be there before we got there.
"Chris don’t take forever, it’s just the beach…you can leave all the gold and diamonds here," Serenity said through the door. I just ignored her, I don’t know why all of my jewelry "scares" her or makes her so..hesitant with me, I’ve never understood it.
"Man, I’ll be ready in a minute..shut all that shit up," I teased back at her. I hurried up and showered, brushed my teeth and hair, dressed, and put on cologne. With Serenity’s wishes, I only put on my double bone chain and my g-shock watch that complemented my camo cargo shorts and solid white polo t-shirt, nothing over the top.
"Finally, you look nice babe…let’s go," Serenity said as she grabbed only one of the crutches and led the way out of the hotel room. For some reason, I have this weird obsession with trying to be normal so I took the risk and told Steve he could chill today, instead of following me around on the beach all day. I know he’s probably with Big Pat at the hospital, he took the events of yesterday pretty hard…if it wasn’t for the fact that I’m paying him, he probably would have boarded a plane and left my ass out to dry…he can’t stand me right now and I honestly understand why.
"Oh and Macki said she doesn’t want to go to beach, she hates the sand but she said to pick her up if we plan on going anywhere else," she told me as we got onto the elevator.
"Alright ma, tell her to be ready around 2:30 and I’ll go back and scoop her, a nigga has reservations so she can’t be ready at 2:31, or 2:32…I need her ready at 2:30."
"Relax Brown, she’ll be ready…come on now."
Without being totally recognized, we were able to leave the hotel and get to the beach in a matter of minutes, like Nima had promised…she was there, waiting on us.
"Nima! What’s up baby girl?" I said while meeting her with a hug. After I released her, she rolled her eyes at me then diverted her attention to Ni-Ni, hugging her then assessing the damage on her leg and my chin.
"Don’t "baby girl" me Chris, I should kick yo’ lil yellow ass for that shit you pulled at the club. I get up early this morning and see your face and Drake’s plastered all over my damn TV, and you have the nerve to bring yo’ ass out of the hotel. I swear I don’t get you nigga," she said as she sat down at the bar and actually ordered a drink at 11:27 am.
"Man, hush all that up. You know they’re about to pin this all on me, like I was the only nigga throwing bottles in that club. It’s all good though, I’ll take whatever charge they’re going to give later but as of now, I came to chill with my girl and my best friend at the beach, you think you can try to relax and shut the hell up for a minute?" I told her as a fan tapped me on my shoulder. I quickly turned around and felt like running all the way back to the hotel once I saw who it was.
"Hey Chris, how are you?" she asked as she hugged me around my neck. I looked back and saw she had two body guards with her, but they weren’t necessarily following her…if I didn’t know any better, I wouldn’t have assumed they were with her.
"Yo, I’m good ma…how are you?" I asked, trying to be polite..knowing whole-heartedly, I didn’t want to be polite.
"I’m fine. Aren’t you going to introduce me to your friends?" she asked as she eyed Serenity and Nima up and down. I shook my head but played along and walked over to Serenity, holding her by her waist.
"Serenity, this is Robyn…Robyn, this is Serenity..not that you need an introduction," I said. Serenity quickly put on a fake smile and held her hand out to shake Robyn’s but I knew she hated every moment of this deep down inside.
"Hi sweetie, you can call me Rih…I hate the name Robyn, and Chris should know that by now," she said while pulling Serenity in a hug. I took off my hat and ran my hand through my curls, I can’t believe she’s pulling a stunt like this. Well actually…it’s Rihanna…I can believe it.
"Hello Nima, how are you?" she said after releasing Serenity. Nima just nodded in her direction, she couldn’t stand her, for various reasons I don’t think I’m even aware of.
"Well Chris, how’s Big Pat holding up?" she asked.
"He’s good, I’ll tell him you asked about him."
"Okay, well look…I’m having a listening party tonight, I’ll text you with all of the information if you’re interested in coming."
"Nah, I’m pretty busy today…hanging out with my baby and my best friend. Good luck with that though, I hope it’s successful. Now, we have lunch reservations we have to attend to, I’ll see you around, okay?" I told her as I got Serenity’s crutch for her and helped her as we tried to make our way through the sand again. "Oh, and tell Drake I said what’s up!" I turned around and yelled back at Rih, it was childish of me but I didn’t give a damn.
"Yellowbone baby, turn back around and come on here, always fucking with people," Nima yelled as she pulled me by my arm. I pulled away from her and decided to take Nima and Serenity to the boardwalk, so we could spend some time at least…next to the beach. I knew I couldn’t stay where Rih was, I would be forced to do some stupid, taunting shit to her that I knew would only cause trouble.
S E R E N I T Y: 2 Weeks Later
After a lot of talking and persuading, my parents finally agreed to let me move to Virginia with Chris. They realized that Louisiana is just way too small and the situation would only get worse before it got better. Mackenzie is still having a hard time dealing with it but Chris promised he would fly her out any time she wanted to come. Ashley isn’t taking it so well either, she claims by her “good luck charm” being miles away, every modeling photo shoot or fashion show audition doesn’t turn out the way it would if I was there. Before agreeing to even move, I tossed and turned trying to make this decision, taking all of that into account. Then, I realized I have to do what’s best for me and if they love me, they’d understand and be happy that I’m finally at peace in my surroundings.
The first week after I was released from the hospital, I stayed with Mama Joyce while Chris got our apartment set up. He claims it’s strictly “my” apartment but I find him sleeping over every night after I moved in on Sunday. I now attend the same school Austin attends here in Richmond and I completely love it. I only have two classes because of me being so much more advanced in Louisiana from early bird and night school classes. I’m finishing AP calculus and psychology, which are two amazing classes. Actually, Richmond VA is pretty amazing all by itself. I don’t know if it’s just because I’m in a new place and everything feels and seems so new to me, or because this is just the way things go in Virginia. Since I’ve been here, I’ve made quite a few friends and associates. Everyone at school is so friendly and display much more “Southern Hospitality” than the kids in Louisiana ever did with me. Another good thing about living here is the fact that Chris isn’t that “big of a deal” here. I mean, he still has pretty hardcore fans but almost everyone here has met him before. I found it refreshing for these people to know I’m his girl friend and not make any judgements or treat me any differently. I love it here, I really do.
"Aye babe, come here for a second," Chris yelled from the living room. I rolled my eyes to the ceiling before getting out of bed. It’s Friday night and all I want to do is sleep. I’ve stayed up long enough already just doing homework so I wouldn’t have to do it during Spring Break.
"What do you want Christopher?" I said as I came into the living room. His eyes were bloodshot red as he stared intently into his computer screen.
"What do you think about New York for your Spring Break trip?" he asked as he lowered me down onto his lap at the computer desk. A while ago, I would have gotten right back up but after losing 40 pounds within a 4 month radius, I no longer worry about stuff like that.
"I love this hotel ma, I stay here almost every time I’m in New York. I know you’ll like it too," he said as he pulled up a beautiful 5-star hotel and showed me pictures of the beach that was nearby, we’d have an oceanfront view.
"Oh my gosh, of course! I’d love to go to New York! I could use the beach right about now," I told him. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve loved the beach. It helps calm and soothe me, it helps to clear my head. Just looking at a picture of the beach can have the same effect.
"Well then, it’s settled. Go pack your bags baby girl, we leave tomorrow around 3:00 pm. You don’t have to worry about packing a lot of stuff, you know you’re probably going to get a new wardrobe out there anyway," he said as he kissed my cheek then cut the computer off. He then held my hand and led the way upstairs. Instead of packing like we both should have done, we fell into bed. Like he’s done for the past two weeks, he wrapped me in his arms as I lay my head on his chest, it was the beginning of a beautiful routine.
"Can we fly Macki out to New York?" I asked Chris as I watched him doze off, I decided to interrupt his sleep just like he did mine.
"She already knows and has a ticket, she leaves tomorrow at the same time. Now, carry yo’ ass to bed Elizabeth, we have a long day ahead of us. Good night ma, I love you," he said as he used a finger to lift my chin so were face to face. He then sealed our night routine with a kiss.
"I love you too Maurice," I told him before drifting off to sleep.
The next day, Chris and I got up at about 11:30 am to do a little packing then head to his mom’s house so she could drop us off at the airport. I’ve never been so happy to dress in sweats and a hoodie than I was today because the airport was extremely crowded due to everyone traveling for Spring Break. I saw a few friends from school there but for Chris’ sake, I decided to lay low. No one recognized Chris until he made the fatal mistake of taking off his snapback and everyone caught a glimpse of his curly, blonde hair. Even then, it wasn’t totally unbearable to deal with. The fans that recognized him were really sweet and didn’t make a big scene or cause any extra or unwanted attention to him after he signed autographs and took pictures discreetly.
"Are the fans going to be as nice as those little girls were?" I asked Chris as we got off of the plane and stepped onto the grounds of New York City.
"Nah, not at all. That’s the only reason Big Pat and Steve are here," he said as he nodded at Big Pat once we made his way over to us.
"Ms. Serenity, looking good girl," Big Pat said as he swooped me up into a hug. I heard Chris clear his throat which caused Big Pat to quickly sat me back down on my feet.
"Chris, relax yo blonde head ass before I drop kick you nigga. You know I don’t play that," Big Pat said as he picked up our bags then headed to the all black Range Rover that waited for us in an unoccupied parking lot.
"Yo Serenitaaaaaayyyy! What’s good girl?" Steve’s country ass said as I got in the car. He can’t pronounce my name correctly for the life of him.
"Nothing much, what y’all been up to with all of this time off?" I asked them as I buckled my seatbelt then swung my legs over Chris’. Thanks to that long plane ride, my legs were killing me. With Chris having the tendancy to be a complete asshole, I thought he was just going to push my legs off of him but instead he started to massage them. I had to make a mental note of that, how he’s been going the extra mile to show he’s not the same guy as before.
"Man, just because we ain’t with Chris doesn’t mean a nigga isn’t working. I still do other side jobs, a nigga got to eat, right?" Steve said. I just shook my head, agreeing with him. I wasn’t in the mood to talk anymore, jetlag was starting to hit me.
"Aye Pat, head to the salon so Serenity can get her hair done and then swing by the hotel so I can drop the bags off before we go pick up Macki," Chris said.
"Wait, what? What salon? Why can’t I go with you guys to Get Macki?" I asked him.
"Relax, I already made your appointment and these upscale ass salons hate it when you cancel on them. So, go in there and get one of them $600 weaves or whatever you want and I’ll be back in an hour, hopefully with Macki," he said as we pulled up to the salon. He handed me his credit card the leaned over to kiss me. I’m definitely not use to this lifestyle, I’m not use to being able to travel whenever I wanted to, or splurge hundreds of dollars on my hair whenever I wanted to. Compared to others, I consider my family wealthier than others but it still doesn’t compare to this. As crazy as it may seem, I don’t think I’m ready to lead a life like this.
C H R I S B R O W N:
After Big Pat and I dropped the bags off at the hotel, we raced back to the airport to pick up Macki. She kept blowing my cell, telling me she was bored and for me to hurry my ass up, and like a dumb ass, I acutally picked up my speed. Once we got to the airport, Big Pat went inside, holding a big, white poster that read “Macki, bring yo ass on” in bold, black lettering. I would have done it myself just so I could see the look on her face but I’ve had enough of the airport paparrazzi for today. Five minutes later, Big Pat emerged from the building with a pouting Mackenzie at his side. I fell over laughing at her face, I knew that poster was going to irritate the shit out of her.
“Why did you let this nigga come in there with a poster like that? After I walked over to him, everyone knew I was Macki and laughed at the sign, people even took pictures of it. Ugh, do you ever think Christopher?” she said as she slammed my door shut.
”Aye, chill out girl. It was just a joke. You keep playing and you’ll be at the beach and the club later on today looking a hot ass mess. Or, you can calm the hell down and I’ll take where Ni-Ni is to go and get one of those expensive ass weaves,” I told her as I tried to catch my breath from laughing.
"Whatever Chris, you get on my damn nerves," she said as she directed her attention to her phone. I did the same and noticed I had two missed calls from Tyga. This nigga never calls me, especially not back to back…so something is up and I quickly pressed the call button to hit him back.
"Yo Mike, what’s up man?" I asked him as he answered the phone. I heard a lot of commotion in the background and instantly thought he was in some sort of trouble.
"Chris! Chyna, Chyna, Ch-Ch-Chyna just had my son! I’m a dad Breezy! I’m holding him right now! Man, you don’t know how good this feels right now. He looks just like me!" he screamed into the phone. I was hoping his son was awake, if he wasn’t…the amount of crying Tyga was about to endure by waking him up would be enough to make anyone scream.
"Congratulations Tyga-Tyg! What yall name him?" I asked.
"King Cairo Stevenson my nigga!" he yelled back at me. I couldn’t help but laugh, he’s never been this happy about anything…ever.
"You just had to use Last Kings as a reference for my nephew’s name, huh?"
"Hell yeah, that album was a fucking success…just like my child will be when he’s older. Enough about me though, how’s Serenity?" I consider Mike my brother, therefore…I tell him everything, including what happened with Ni-Ni and the bullshit Tiff keeps pulling.
"She’s good man. She loves it in VA, I’ve never seen her so happy," I told him.
"That’s good, tell her I asked about her. Now, what’s going on with Tiff…is she having your child..or what nigga?"
"That’s what she says man. Honestly, I feel like it’s a bunch of lies though. I don’t remember the condom ripping or tearing that night…so I really don’t feel like this kid is mine, it’s Kevin’s."
"Now Breezy, we both grown ass men, right?"
"Then you know damn well that’s a dumb-ass, high school ass excuse to not claim your seed bruh. I paid attention in sex education class and if you did too, you’d know that—-I’m not going to even go into detail about that BUT, you know condoms aren’t 100% semen proof. You knew what you were signing up for before you did it my nigga." Fuck! He’s right, he’s always right.
"Aight man, I feel you. I know you and Chyna moving back to California with lil’ man soon, I’ll come visit when yall get straight. I’m ready to go kick it with Trigga in minute though, I’ll hit you back later," I said before I hung up the phone and shoved it in my pocket.
"Trigga? You mean Trey Songz? Let me go with you!" Mackenzie said as we pulled up to the salon, I looked through the window and saw Serenity in the chair, no where near finished.
"Macki hop yo’ ass up out this car and go get that wig smoked girl," I said as I reached over her and popped her door open. She rolled her eyes and stuck out her tongue like we were in elementary school again before getting out of the car. I shook my head and quickly changed places with Big Pat so I could swing over to Trigga’s hotel room. Once I tweeted about being in New York, he asked could we link up and I was down. Trey has always been my nigga, just seems like I hang with more rappers than I do with singers, like myself…nothing against him though.
I was thankful for security being all over the place thanks to fans hearing about Trey’s stay at the hotel. I was able to be escorted to his room without a single soul seeing or recognizing me, life is good.
”Breezy! The Prince of VA himself! What’s hannin’ baby?” Trey said as he opened the door and dapped me up.
"Haha, that’s you man but nothing really, out here grinding…the ususal. What’s popping with you?" I asked as I sat down on the sofa. I noticed he had a bottle of Ciroc and blunt sitting on the table, this nigga was in here having a party by himself.
"Nothing, at all man. Just working on this new album, you heard the single, right?" he asked as he took a sip from the Ciroc bottle, then lit the blunt. He passed the blunt over to me but I declined, a nigga not trying to go to jail behind a failed piss test.
"Yeah, shit is smooth bruh. What you trying to do with the video?" I asked him.
"That’s where I need your help man. I’ve seen the Slight Work video and it’s genius. I need you to produce my video. You can have full range of it, let your creative juices flow my nigga. There’s only one thing that has to be permenant through out the video."
"And what’s that Trigga?"
"Kelly, Kelly Rowland has to play the leading lady."
"Kelly? Kelly from Destiny’s Child? Bruh, what’s with you and Kelly? Why aren’t yall together already?"
"She on some other shit. She claims I’m too young, she’s only 4 years older though. It’s pure bullshit but trust and believe, a nigga is not giving up!" he took another chug of the Ciroc and stood up, unsteadily. I looked at my watch and knew it was time for me to bounce too. It’s 7:00 pm already and Serenity and Macki still need to go find dresses for tonight.
"Aight man, we can talk business a little later, tonight…we popping bottles!" I said as I dapped him up once again before leaving. As security escorted me back to my car, I called Serenity.
"Boo, you and Macki done yet?" I asked her as I pulled out of the parking lot, Big Pat and Steve eyeing me at the way I called Serenity "boo," not too sure I give a fuck though.
"We’re almost done, well I’m done…Macki should be finishing up soon," she said.
"Alright, well I’m on my way over there. See you in a few beautiful," I told her before hanging up.
"Man, don’t ever call Serenity and speak all that lovey-dovey ass shit while I’m around, I almost threw up," Steve said from the back seat. I noticed he didn’t have his seatbelt on so I pressed hard on the gas and swung the car into a right turn. This nigga literally flew to the other side of the car, I was pleased with myself.
"Now, just sit back there and shut the hell up," I told him as I looked at him through the rearview mirror. He flipped me a bird before settling in and buckling his seat belt. Big Pat and I laughed for a good 5 minutes until I pulled up to the hair salon. Big Pat got out first and then made his way to my side, shielding me from the few girls that I’m almost positive would have went crazy if they could see me. I looked back and laughed at Steve, his salty ass stayed in the car.
I knocked on the door and waited for Nima to open it. Nima is the owner of the salon and one of my good friends. We don’t talk as often as we use to because we both are always so busy but I know that if I ever need anything, I can go to her and vice versa.
"Yellow-bone baby! How are you!" Nima said as she opened the door and hugged me. I rolled my eyes at her childhood nickname for me, mainly because she’s almost two shades lighter than I am.
"I’m cool Nima, how are you? Doing it big I see, business is going good I’m guessing?" I said as I sat down in the chair beside her station. Once Nima told me she wanted to be this upscale, hollywood, celebrity hair stylist, I went ahead and paid for the salon and helped her out with anything else. I don’t normally do it, but because I knew how bad she was willing to work, I didn’t mind helping.
"Yes, business is going well Christopher. I see things are going well for you too. Baby girl in the back told me all about you, she’s sweet and couldn’t stop smiling as she talked about you. She’s a keeper my little love muffin, she really is and you bet not fuck it up," Nima said as she threw the clip she had in Macki’s hair at me. I threw it at Macki, just to piss her off.
"Hey now Yellow-bone, don’t fuck with my customers!" she said. I just ignored her as I saw Serenity emerge from the bathroom. She looked beautiful, her hair was long enough on it’s own so I was glad she didn’t get a lot of that weave shit put in, it looked naturally curly and fit her face perfectly.
"Hey baby girl, you look beautiful and as soon as Macki is done we can go and get you both dresses and shoes for tonight," I told her as I wrapped her in my arms and lowered her down on my lap.
"What about the beach Chris? I thought that’s mostly what we came here for?" she asked, poking out her bottom lip, hitting me with that damn puppy dog pout.
"Tomorrow is your day Serenity, we’ll do whatever your little heart desires, I promise babe," I told her.
"I hope that heart desires bringing Nima with yall! After today, I’m on Spring Break too!" Nima said as she took the cape looking thing off of Macki. I had to give it to her, Nima is talented.
"We’ll see about that. Here, " I said as I got my credit card from Serenity and gave it to Nima. I looked down at Serenity’s hands, then Macki’s and noticed they both got their nails done but Nima only charged me for the hair. I hated when she did that, I know we’re like family and everything but I’m the last person she should be worrying about giving a discount.
"Alright, thanks babies. Come back and see me soon," she said as she hugged Serenity and Macki. They both agreed then walked out of the door. I took a smaller stack of about $500 out of my pocket and placed it in her apron.
"Chris, I don’t need thi—"
"Nima shut the hell up and take it, I’ll call you tomorrow and see what we can set up for the beach. Until then though, be breezy!" I said as I hugged her then quickly ran out and into the car, thankful no one recognized me.
"Serenity, Macki…can yall bring yall asses on! I’d like to get to the club today, not tomorrow," I yelled in the bathroom. They already had their dresses on, they were just putting on makeup now, which seemed like it was taking hours.
"Calm ya tits Breezy, we’re ready," Macki said as she pushed past me and out of the bathroom. She looked like a whole new person, it may be because I’ve never seen Macki out of sweats and UGGS but either way, she looked nice. Serenity was next to exit to the bathroom and she almost made me choke on the damn mint I just placed in my mouth. In my opinion, she looked better than Beyonce, Kim K, Kelly Rowland, Nicki Minaj, Kae, and Rih. I couldn’t believe the girl standing in front of me was mine.
"How do I look?" she asked as she turned around slowly.
"Let’s just say you can’t leave my side tonight, not looking as fine as you do. Every nigga gon’ be at you and I can’t have that," I told her as I got her coat then lead everyone out to the hotel room with Big Pat and Steve waiting.
Minutes later we pulled up to the club and the flashes of cameras immediately showered over me and the rest of my party. I think Serenity became use to it but Macki…not so much, she tried hiding behind Steve all the way into the club. As we entered the VIP room, I saw Trigga and a couple of my other niggas. I decided to go and introduce Serenity and Macki, since Macki was so interested in meeting him anyway.
"Trey, I’d like you to meet my girl Serenity, and her friend Mackenzie," I said as I pushed Macki more so in front so she was inches away from Trey. She avoided freaking out and screaming by cuffing a hand over her mouth. Trey slowly removed it and swooped her up in a hug before shaking hands with Ni-Ni like a real nigga should. He’s the only one that has respected me enough to keep their distance from MY girl.
"Nice to meet you both. This here is my homie Meek Mill and right there is my lil dude Kevin Hart," Trey said as he pointed to the people I already knew, the introduction was more so for Serenity and Macki.
"Y’all are more than welcome to stay in the VIP with us, we only have a few others coming so we just chilling for now," Meek said as he ordered two bottles of Ciroc over to the table. I excused myself from them and made my way over to the bathroom with Big Pat, Ni-Ni and Macki took up all the time in the bathroom at the hotel and I totally forgot I had to piss.
As I made my way to the bathroom, I heard someone calling my name continuously. I tried ignoring it so I could get to the bathroom but it became annoying so I just turned around and looked over Big Pat to see this fruity ass nigga calling me. At one point, Drake was my nigga…it wasn’t until after that fool started fucking with Rih that I couldn’t associate myself with him anymore.
"Breezy, what’s up man?" he said as he finally caught up to me and held his hand out for me to dap him up. I just looked at it, like it was a foreign object or something.
"Nigga, what the hell you want?" I asked without looking at him.
"I see your new girl over there, she’s cute as a button. You should introduce her to me, not that it matters…I could still take her the same way I took Rih." Big Pat stepped in front of me as soon as he saw my fist ball up. This nigga was brave, I can’t believe he actually tried that. Big Pat just spun me around and pushed me into the bathroom. I splashed water on my face, took a piss then came out, thanking God Drake was no longer around, if he was…I would have definitely done some shit I’d regret.
"You okay baby?" Serenity asked as I got back to the VIP section. I just shook my head and poured me a cup of whatever Macki was drinking on. They carded her and Serenity before we got in but no one keeps track of the underaged in the VIP section so Macki was already having a good time.
"Yeah, I’m good ma, you having a good time?" I asked her. She shook her head then pulled me up so I could dance with her. I then saw a waitress walk past and without thinking, I did something I probably would have been better off not doing. I called the waitress over and told her to take a bottle of Nuvo to Drake’s table with a note on the back of a receipt I told her to give him. : "Here’s a bottle on me, drink up my nigga…it must be hard coming in second all of the time. Couldn’t have Nicki until she probably stopped fucking with Wayne, and you couldn’t have Rih until she stopped fucking with me.”
I don’t know why I did it. I could have sworn I was done with stooping down to these nigga’s levels but I couldn’t let this Canadian ass nigga play me like that.
"Who did you send that to?" Serenity asked me while I tried putting my mind back on her and having a good time.
"Just an old friend I ran into. You want anything to drink? No alcohol, you need to tell Macki over there to slow up too," I told her as I looked at Macki, she was already slump, talking to Trigga, probably annoying the hell out of him.
"Yo Breezy!" I heard someone yell, no sooner than I turned around to see who it was, I saw a bottle go flying through the air and as it hit the ground, it scattered all over the club, making a loud noise. I didn’t know what the hell was going on but seconds later, another bottle was thrown, this one hitting ground then bouncing glass fragments up, cutting my chin. I pushed Serenity over to Macki who was now under Steve without thinking. I picked up an empty bottle from my table and looked out into the crowd, seeing that nigga Drake trying to sneak to the bathroom. I bet he was the one that threw the first bottle, so I threw my bottle up in the air…he saw it coming and dodged it..letting it crash on the floor.
By that point, the crowd was going crazy…people were trying to leave while other people were joining in on the bottle throwing. I didn’t even blink good enough before another bottle came cascading my way. Big Pat pushed his way in front of me, taking me down to the ground while the bottle hit him. All I saw was blood on his white shirt, I couldn’t see where it was coming from but I knew we both were probably cut. Another bottle flew and I heard a scream coming from my VIP section, I looked over and saw Steve holding a towel to Serenity’s leg. Once I saw him turn the towel over and blood had completely saturated it, I lost it. I came from up under Big Pat’s grasp and started throwing everything, empty bottles, half empty bottles, full bottles..everything. I no longer saw Drake but I saw niggas from his party, they kept throwing bottles along with everyone else in the club.
"Breezy, we have to go man," Big Pat said, I noticed his words were slurred and I finally took the time to look at him. His face was drenched in blood that looked like it came from his head…I took a closer look and saw he was pretty much sliced all around his head, I could peel back his scalp if I wanted to. That’s when I realized he was losing a lot of blood. I took off my shirt and tied it around his head as best as I could, trying to put pressure on it to stop the bleeding as I held him steady while we walked through this war zone. I then raced over to Serenity, Steve was able to pick her up and carry her out of the club while Trigga helped get Macki to the car. The paparrazzi didn’t let up, even though they could clearly see people were hurt so I pushed my way through, trying to get everyone to the car so I could get to the hospital. I couldn’t wait for an ambulance to get here, he’d never be treated because they’d never get here in time.
"What the hell were you thinking man?" Steve yelled from the back seat. I don’t know, I honestly don’t know what was going through my head at the time.